huh? life has a purpose??

2007-01-04T12:25:00.000+08:00

its the second day of school and i just realised how surreal the feeling is when it doesn't feel as if a new year has just begun, what without the beginning of a new school year and all

i don't know, its just that as i sit here in bed with my laptop, i decided to do some reading before i slept, and i decided to go browse through the blogs of my friends back in singapore, to see how everybody is doing with the arrival of 2007

i thank all those who have blogged and lamented about the loss of 4.9 Elijah, which was undoubtedly the best class in my four years in ACS(I). thanks due to the fact that if i hadn't read all your touching posts and memoirs, i wouldn't be missing 4.9 as muc as i do now, and wouldn't be a part of the class in missing the class

yeah, just to let you know, thanks

2006-12-09T06:20:00.000+08:00

Just finished watching some tv, and came across some interesting stuff.

Singapore was featured in Ripley's Believe it or Not under the unbelievable laws section. This was regarding the law against chewing gum, that any offenders would be made to do humiliating public service, be taped, and broadcasted on the local news. Unbelievable indeed.

I have nothing more to say.

2006-10-22T20:02:00.000+08:00

so i will be leaving on the 5th of november in the morning, come at like 7 (?) if you want to see me off

2006-08-24T21:00:00.000+08:00

ahem.

2006-08-16T20:16:00.000+08:00

Si... Silicon
You scored 35 Mass, 37 Electronegativity, 31 Metal, and 10 Radioactivity!

Interesting. Take a bunch of really common person-elements and throw them together to get something truely exceptional... that's you. You are probably someone that gave up on trying to understand society at large a long time ago. You don't fear it, but you don't try to be one with it either. You are more or less unperturbed by things... if a problem comes up you might deal with it, or you might avoid it... whatever. You don't take kindly to people pushing you around, and you don't really push anyone else around. You're probably the only one that can tame oxygen simply because you don't understand it's raging neediness, but that doesn't mean that you'll really enjoy having a tame oxygen hanging around all that much either. You can probably get along with people like yourself really well, but you aren't your own soulmate... if only they could make entire colonies of people like you you'd be stoked. Just like you don't understand society, society doesn't understand you... and yes that is my excuse for not knowing how to describe you better.

My test tracked 4 variables How you compared to other people your age and gender:

You scored higher than 40% on Mass
You scored higher than 68% on Electroneg
You scored higher than 8% on Metal
You scored higher than 41% on Radioactivity

Link: The Which Chemical Element Am I Test written by effataigus on OkCupid Free Online Dating, home of the 32-Type Dating Test

2006-08-13T19:22:00.000+08:00

"Look at this photograph
Everytime I do it makes me laugh
How did our eyes get so red
And what the hell is on Joey's head

And this is where I grew up
I think the present owner fixed it up
I never knew we'd ever went without
The second floor is hard for sneaking out

And this is where I went to school
Most of the time had better things to do
Criminal record says I broke in twice
I must have done it half a dozen times

I wonder if It's too late
Should i go back and try to graduate
Life's better now then it was back then
If I was them I wouldn't let me in

Oh oh oh
Oh god I

Every memory of looking out the back door
I had the photo album spread out on my bedroom floor
It's hard to say it, time to say it
Goodbye, goodbye

Every memory of walking out the front door
I found the photo of the friend that I was looking for
It's hard to say it, time to say it
Goodbye, goodbye

We used to listen to the radio
And sing along with every song we know
We said someday we'd find out how it feels
To sing to more than just the steering wheel

Kim's the first girl I kissed
I was so nervous that I nearly missed
She's had a couple of kids since then
I haven't seen her since god knows when

Oh oh oh
Oh god I

Every memory of looking out the back door
I had the photo album spread out on my bedroom floor
It's hard to say it, time to say it
Goodbye, goodbye

Every memory of walking out the front door
I found the photo of the friend that I was looking for
It's hard to say it, time to say it
Goodbye, goodbye

I miss that town
I miss the faces
You can't erase
You can't replace it
I miss it now
I can't believe it

So hard to stay
Too hard to leave it

If I could I relive those days
I know the one thing that would never change

Every memory of looking out the back door
I had the photo album spread out on my bedroom floor
It's hard to say it, time to say it
Goodbye, goodbye

Every memory of walking out the front door
I found the photo of the friend that I was looking for
It's hard to say it, time to say it
Goodbye, goodbye

Look at this photograph
Everytime I do it makes me laugh
Everytime I do it makes me"

..........................

10 Things i will miss about you:

1. Going to church every sunday and wondering if you would show up
2. Waiting and watching to see if you would turn up for yg outings
3. Thinking whether i should call you to ask why you don't come for yg sometimes
4. Your antics with Becky
5. The jokes you made which were funny only because of the way you told them
6. Calling you knowing that you probably won't pick up your handphone
7. Hoping that whoever picks up the home phone doesn't ask who i am
8. Wondering if i would ever bump into you when i go out
9. Talking to you only to be interrupted within ten seconds by external factors
10. Just having you around

I guess this shows that my involvement in your life is very limited, but the opposite does not apply and I miss you terribly. Hope I can be around next december where you are allegedly supposed to be returning.

2006-08-09T20:57:00.000+08:00

Hmm it feels good not to be watching ndp at all. (Last year I glanced at the screen bah.) However, I shan't go into stuff like a pseudo-rant about Singapore in order to not make myself paranoid to ian's post (again).

So what's there to say now?

.....................

Staying in boarding school for ndp holiday, incidentally also feels pretty good. For a number of reasons of course.

Firstly, when I'm in boarding school at least I know that I can spend my time doing something constructive such as overdue chinese homework. When I am at home there's my bed, my ~~dad's~~ computer (with reliable internet and msn), and the ever noisy piano to distract me.

Secondly, when I'm in boarding school I don't have to feel as if I'm living in someone else's house. As in, I can feel that my room belongs to me and therefore is mine. When I'm at home I feel like I'm living in my dad's room in my dad's house cause he was the one that paid for the renovation. But then again I'm living in the school's room and off my dad's sponsoring, so I don't know what I am talking about.

Thirdly, i feel that my privacy is actually respected in boarding school. This is because people actually knock before entering the room; as opposed to just barging in and immediately trying to glance at my computer screen while saying that they just want to see me. Gosh i never knew that knocking before entering was a common practice! Nah just kidding, but at least not in my ~~dad's~~ house it isnt.

But oh well i don't suppose you (if any) came here just to read my whining, as some people like to put it.

2006-08-06T19:56:00.000+08:00

Today was a good day on the whole I guess. Service was good, with Paul providing intentional/unintentional comic relief when appropriate of course.

(Sigh why do I always find myself at a loss for words when I want to talk to you?)

Oh dear then you and your family were called up during prayers to pray for you.

After service was the most emotional time I’ve had for awhile thanks to you, though that will probably be replaced this Saturday.

I don't know, I’m afraid I won't be able to cry when you go. I am always slow in realising just how emotional some things are, or maybe I’m gotten over it? Nah... Don’t think so.

I want to hug you again, but this time tries to hug me back ok?

I want to see you again before Saturday, just to talk and spend time with you before you go off. But of course I more than understand how busy you must be, as usual. Thank goodness this week has basically nothing, because I won't be able to concentrate when everything seems to remind me of you and sadness. Example? Watching 'I not stupid 2' and remembering how you said you cried when watching it.

Sigh? I’ll try to call you, bye.

2006-07-31T20:01:00.000+08:00

How many people that call themselves Christians actually realise how unworthy we are of God's love? How many grasp the irony and enormity of Christ's death? Or how it was truly the ultimate sacrifice?

This is not meant to be cynical, don't worry

(now I’m stuck as how to continue, doh?)

Oh well

......................

school is dreary and I am becoming increasingly disillusioned with the illustrious school in which we study. Homework is such a burden, it's important and yet so overwhelming. A prime example is advanced math.

We get taught for ten minutes, but are given enough homework to last a week, or two.

Disclaimer: this gauge is for AVERAGE-working people, but I don't suppose I’m one of them so what am I talking about

then there's chinese. Reflective of the country itself, we are swarmed.

bah or I am just lazy, as many who manage to do all their work among other commitments might say.

.......................

Sigh when will I stop getting paranoid about how people see me? I just made myself seem like a total idiot after getting all excited and scared over the last part of SOMEONE's blog post, when I should be learning to trust and have faith in our God-blessed relationship.

sigh

2006-07-30T20:29:00.000+08:00

Some people should learn that making me promise promises I can't keep is just shooting yourself in the foot. Wow okay that’s nice you make me promise something you know I can't keep, then get all pissed and lecture me about trust when you yourself aren't very trustworthy with all your freaking snooping around.

Get a life lah, too bad I have to go back on the weekends since you allegedly miss me, or rather miss barging into my room without knocking and insisting that you are allowed to do such things. I’m sick and tired of your disrespect for my privacy and person, so I can safely say that I would rather stay here over the weekend by myself than go home. So there, you threaten to take things away from me? What’s there except necessities considering that I’m living in a hostel?

Sigh or maybe I’m just unappreciative and ungrateful, shame on me?

Probably

.............................

Our new yg5 is decidedly good, but I don't feel a sense of bonding at all. Sure we have most of the old members, but we also lost a few of the people that were really a part of the old yg5. Take Alastair for an example, we no longer have a good role model outside of the ygls to follow in our context; or you could take the example of Becky and Chris who liven up youth group with their antics, when they decide to be present of course.

But oh well, things just happen, not necessarily shit, but you have to accept it either way. Bah?

At least I have ties with both Ailene and Paul, shouldn't be too bad.

..............................

I think there's quite a significant difference between a personal blog and a self-centered blog; I can safely say that my blog is personal, but I don't insist that everything I say has to be about me do I?

2006-07-28T20:15:00.000+08:00

So chris is leaving in 2 - 3 weeks time, apparently now it's 'more confirmed' than last time. I remember waking up the day after i found out and thinking 'omg is this real?'

*checks blog* oh well.

But there is happiness to be found, i got everything i prayed for. More time, reconciliation, i got it all.

Oh thanks be to God whom through all things are possible.

......................

I don't think i really like the fact that the whole world knows about my alleged crush. It gives me sort of a code of conduct to follow, i feel.

I can't go around acting stupid or people will think i am incapable of love

I can't go around acting shallow or people will think i am just lusting after someone, deluded

Or should i replace 'acting' with 'being'?

Sigh? Or maybe i'm just so paranoid, having grown up in a hypocritical and deceiving environment.

...................

I really don't know what to think about some people now, they act nice to me, but i get the feeling that it's a farce, as past experiences have told me.

When i get affected by an insult, it's not because of the potential truth in it, but the fact that the person means it.

I don't know, maybe my friendship with some people just isn't built up on understanding each other

2006-07-21T19:47:00.000+08:00

hmm okay so i'm out of hibernation for now.

why haven't i been blogging? good question.

maybe it's because i can't seem to think of anything interesting to write; is life really that uninteresting? no? yeah it isn't, so bad reason.

maybe it's because i'm afraid of being misunderstood and judged by sanctimonious, self-righteous and condescending people. well that's not unfounded, considering a couple of incidents i've had with a certain someone; whom i intend to give a tight slap as a parting gift at the end of the year. i dont want to put up with getting paranoid over whether people are making opinions about me which they arent telling me and talking about me behind my back; but i guess people do that, and thus i am paranoid. so not that bad a reason, but oh well.

maybe it's because i'm afraid of saying anything that might be potentially incriminating, especially after what mr alistair chew talked about blogging during hall meeting yesterday. doh? everything must be justified? what if i want to indirectly espress my unhappiness and disgust for someone for reasons i can't be bothered/ can't say? huh huh huh? (haha)

maybe i'm afraid (again) of being looked at of as stupid. nothing i can do if people see results as the highest level of intelligence.

orrrrr....

maybe i'm just lazy, heh.

...............

this post is written for the sole purpose of explaining why i don't blog ~~often~~, no promise or gurantee has been made that i will continue to do so. (but i shall try)

2006-06-30T21:52:00.000+08:00

here are my long overdue random-thoughts-in car-rides during my tour of england

...................

did you know that allison was half-japanese?

why are there so many indians in england? is it the cricket?

the sky turns dark at 11 and turns bright at 4:30, wth?

why are there so many deluded definitions of intelligence?

why is everything freaking 3x singapore price?

why hasn't chips & gravy been crowned as the world's greatest invention?

why does my dad try to speak with a british accent and succeed only in annoying me and embarrasing me?

what the heck is the big deal about footballer wives anyway?

since when did steak and ale pie constitute stew with a bun on top?!

i had this idea about a scriptwriter's script but i forgot the elaboration.

english beggars use designer caps to collect their coins, chinese beggars use the cups from the trash

i am tired of people who possess undisputed intelligence.

honestly, what is the point of taking yourself against the scenery? can't people just appreciate nature for once?

soccer freaks will kill me for this but mindlessly supporting your team even though it's not trying it's best or whatever is... well mindless. so there, you don't need to talk about soccer in every blog post or play soccer everyday to tell which team is trying harder and/or playing better.

why does everything seem possible when the magic number one is added to the timestable of three!

and british news is so much better presented and more interesting than singapore news.

2006-06-19T21:38:00.000+08:00

[ ] I have read a lot of books.
[ ] I have been on some sort of varsity team.
[1] I have run more than 2 miles without stopping.
[ ] I have been to Canada.
[2] I have been to Europe. (just came back!)
[3] I have watched cartoons for hours.
[4] I have tripped UP the stairs. (useless i know -.-)
[5] I have fallen down an entire flight of stairs. (actually i jumped down but nvm)
[ ] I have been snowboarding/skiing.
[6] I have played ping pong.
[7] I swam in the ocean.
[] I have been on a whale watch.
[8] I have seen fireworks.
[ ] I have seen a shooting star
[ ] I have seen a meteor shower.
[9] I have almost drowned.
[10] I have been so embarrassed I wanted to disappear.
[11] I have listened to one CD over and over and over again.
[ ] I have had stitches.
[ ] I have had frostbite.
[ ] I have licked a frozen pole and got stuck there.
[12] I have stayed up ’til 2 doing homework/projects.
[ ] I currently have a job.
[ ] I have been ice skating.
[ ] I have been roller blading.
[13] I have fallen flat on my face.
[14] I have tripped over my own two feet.
[15] I have been in a fist fight.
[16] I have watched the Power Rangers. (despite my mum not allowing me to watch)
[17] I attend Church regularly. (unlike SOME people)
[18] I have played truth or dare. (-.-)
[19] I have already had my 16th birthday.
[ ] I have already had my 17th birthday.
[18] I’ve called someone stupid. (Mostly rayner)
[19] I’ve been in a verbal argument. (of course lah)
[20] I’ve cried in school. (yeah when stupid jtek whacked sally with the hockey stick)
[ ] I’ve played basketball on a team.
[ ] I’ve played baseball on a team.
[ ] I’ve played football on a team.
[21] I’ve played soccer on a team.
[ ] I’ve done cheerleading on a team.
[ ] I’ve played softball on a team.
[ ] I’ve played volleyball on a team.
[ ] I’ve played tennis on a team.
[ ] I’ve been on a track or cross country team.
[22] I’ve been swimming more than 20 times in my life.
[ ] I’ve bungee jumped.
[23] I’ve climbed a rock wall.
[24] I’ve lost more than $20.
[25] I’ve called myself an idiot.
[26] I’ve called someone else an idiot.
[27] I’ve cried myself to sleep. (bah?)
[28] I’ve had (or have) pets.
[ ] I’ve owned a spice girls CD.
[ ] I’ve owned a Britney Spears CD.
[ ] I’ve owned an N*Sync CD.
[ ] I’ve owned a backstreet boys CD.
[ ] I’ve mooned someone. (some people might shoot me if i dont check this)
[29] I have sworn at someone of authority before. (err that molin tuition teacher pissed me off)
[ ] I’ve been in the newspaper.
[ ] I’ve been on TV.
[ ] I’ve been to Hawaii.
[ ] I’ve eaten sushi. (or otah)
[ ] I’ve been on the other side of a waterfall.
[30] I’ve watched all of the Lord of the Rings movies.
[31] I’ve watched all the Harry Potter movies.
[ ] I’ve watched all of the Rocky movies.
[ ] I’ve watched the 3 stooges.
[ ] I’ve watched “Newlyweds” Nick & Jessica.
[32] I’ve watched Looney Tunes.
[ ] I’ve been stuffed into a locker/I have stuffed others into lockers.
[33] I’ve been called a geek. (by a freaking troll who claims i am one cause i wear specs)
[34] I’ve studied hard for a test and got a bad grade. (what the hell)
[35] I’ve not studied at all for a test and aced it. (do first term physics tests count?)
[36] I’ve hugged my mom within the past 24 hrs.
[ ] I’ve hugged my dad within the past 24 hours.
[37] I’ve met a celebrity/music artist.
[38] I’ve written poetry. (nah)
[ ] I’ve been arrested. (luckily plastic gun parts don't show up on airport scanners)
[ ] I’ve been attracted to someone much older than me.
[ ] I’ve been tickled till I’ve cried.
[ ] I’ve tickled someone else until they cried.
[39] I’ve had/have siblings. (unfortunately)
[ ] I’ve been to a rock concert. (i dont suppose those crap bands coming to our school counted)
[40] I’ve listened to classical music and enjoyed it. (canon in d is tolerable)
[41] I’ve been in a play. (YOU ARE SPECIAL!! <3)
[ ] I’ve been picked last in gym class.
[ ] I’ve been picked first in gym class.
[ ] I’ve been picked in that middle-range in gym class.
[42] I’ve cried in front of my friends. (i should have friends in school methinks)
[43] I’ve read a book longer than 1,000 pages.
[44] I’ve played Halo 2. (i would have done so much better on the comp..)
[45 ] I’ve freaked out over a sports game. (Germany - Poland, went mad at Neuville's goal)
[ ] I’ve been to Alaska.
[46] I’ve been to China.
[ ] I’ve been to Spain.
[ ] I’ve been to Japan.
[47] I’ve had a fight with someone on AIM.
[48 ] I’ve had a fight with someone face-to-face. (my mom, mostly)
[49] I’ve had serious conversations on any IM. (i assume that it should be with daryl)
[50] I’ve forgiven someone who has done something wrong to me. (no it's not rayner)
[51] I’ve been forgiven. (thankfully)
[ ] I’ve screamed at a scary movie.
[ ] I’ve cried at a chick flick.
[ ] I’ve watched a lot of action movies.
[52] I’ve screamed at the top of my lungs (now now daryl rollercoasters make you infertile)
[ ] I’ve been to a rap concert.
[ ] I’ve been to a hip hop concert.
[ ] I’ve lived in more than 2 houses.
[53] I’ve driven on the highway/been on the highway.
[54] I’ve driven more than 40 miles in a day/been in a car that went more than 40 miles in a day. (all that damn travelling in england..)
[ ] I’ve been in a car accident.
[ ] I’ve done drugs.
[55] I’ve been homesick. (London, despite being with my family)
[56] I’ve thrown up.
[57] I’ve puked on someone. (baby lah.)
[58] I’ve been horseback riding. (pony rides at the zoo anyone?)
[59] I’ve filled out more than 10 myspace/LJ surveys.
[60] I’ve spoken my mind in public. ('bloody moron, block the door for what')
[61] I’ve proved someone wrong. (yeah my mom.)
[62] I’ve been proven wrong by someone. (not by my mom.)
[ ] I’ve broken a leg.
[63] I’ve broken an arm/fingers. (my weird finger!)
[64] I’ve fallen off a swing.
[65] I’ve swung on a swing for more than 30 minutes straight.
[ ] I’ve watched Winnie the Pooh movies.
[66] I’ve forgotten my backpack when I’ve gone to school. (in primary school i ran out of the car)
[ ] I’ve lost my backpack.
[67] I’ve come close to dying. (sigh, the dangers of being a professional jaywalker)
[ ] I’ve seen someone die.
[68] I’ve known someone who has died.
[ ] I’ve wanted to be an actor/actress at some point.
[ ] I’ve done modelling.
[69] I’ve forgotten to brush my teeth some mornings.
[70] I’ve taken something/someone for granted. (my family, probably)
[ ] I’ve realized how good my life is. (bleahfksdhkgh)
[71] I’ve counted my blessings. (how contradictory)
[72] I’ve made fun of a classmate. (thirsty lippo...)
[ ] I’ve been asked out by someone and I said no.
[73] I’ve slapped someone in the face. (kenny i think)
[ ] I’ve been skateboarding.
[74] I’ve been back stabbed by someone I thought was a friend. (HI FAB ARE YOU READING THIS SHIT?!)
[75] I’ve lied to someone to their face.
[76] I’ve told a little white lie.
[77] I’ve taken a day off from school just so I don’t go insane. (it wasnt the green forms)
[ ] I’ve fainted.
[ ] I’ve had an argument with someone about whether cheerleading is a sport or not.
[78] I’ve pushed someone into a pool.
[79 ] I’ve been pushed into a pool. (and almost drowned)
[80] I’ve been/am in love. (bah.)

.........................

thanks for the free blog post

2006-06-16T23:31:00.000+08:00

watching phantom of the opera later, nuff said.

2006-06-15T06:34:00.000+08:00

hello i will be back soon and quite frankly cant wait

(i'm tired of lugging my M16/M4A1 carbine replica around and hoping i won't get caught at the airport)

hee haw.

anyway there had been really long car rides where my mind was allowed to wander, luckily we've stopped moving and have settled back in london now for some rest. (and internet at last.)

yeah anyway i miss everyone alot and i fear my return due to chriskng, oh dear.

sally makes good companionship.

2006-06-03T23:25:00.000+08:00

well what can i say? youth camp was great, no not yeah-i-got-to-meet-alot-of-new-people-and-have-fun great, but great as in 'great is the Lord and most worthy of praise...'

worship was definitely moving, though i didnt get to experience it from the point of view of the rest of the campers, but i could feel their energy and the touch of God upon them when i led and played.

I am thankful for this time set aside for me to truly experience God, and be in His presense. The time spent playing guitar alone instead of partaking in free-time games, was well spent indeed.

Intimacy with God is the greatest battle in our lives, and i believe every word of it. Our God is not merely a provider or shelter or protector, he is a God that desires us, that loves us, and wants to be intimate with us.

"You're all i want,
You're all i ever needed,
You're all i want,
Help me know you are near."

Words that can be easily applied to someone you love other than God, how appropiate to choose a more generic song for the camp theme song. So that people can decide.

I learnt that entrusting things into God's hands and being faithful, is the best way to go about doing anything.

............................

Things are ironing out and straightening, just like the rebuilding of a structure or monument. Talk about camp afterglow.

Is that happiness i feel? Feels pretty good.

............................

And of course i will miss ding, despite not knowing him very well. i shan't write a tribute or splash my emotions across this post, i will just say that Ding Si Yan will be dearly missed by all who had the pleasure of meeting him.

That is all, back to hibernation i go.

2006-05-18T00:24:00.000+08:00

'for all your times of laughter,
in every hopeful prayer,
when the world weighs on your shoulders
though your sorrow and your despair
with everything, with every breath
praise the Lord.'

'when the night seems so long, (throw your hands to the sky)
you can sing a new song, (wipe the tears from your eyes)
when you're weak He is strong,
he can heal your wounded soul
and calm the storm inside.'

2006-05-13T21:38:00.000+08:00

another birthday come and gone, sigh? so ironic that i'm reminded of renewal during the exam period.

here i am trying to start a school year anew with new studying methods and attitudes and what? turns out i can't break free of last year, now just what am i supposed to do? who knows, maybe i just have to work extra hard and swallow back all the vomit from last year so i can re-vomit it again at the end of this year. i just hope that year 5 won't hub on year 4 stuff, or i will be fighting to stay in singapore for nothing at all.

i'm more than confirmed going to con camp due to physics, chem and adv math, heck even core math. it's so frustrating, i mean it's not as if i don't try to score, not as if i don't give a damn. it's because i care that i'm frustrated and annoyed.

who cares how old i am or how i act, i will always be stupid retarded eric right? fact is i am not, you don't even know me, dont judge. so i'm fugly thus im stupid, pity you can't drown cause you're so shallow. i feel that i have changed from the vulgar immature twit i was in sec one and two, and don't claim you can't see it cause you don't know me. and if you're that kinda of person i don't want to get to know you anyway, so piss off.

oh well.

...................

so this is what people dub 'sweet sixteen' huh

2006-05-13T00:38:00.000+08:00

You scored as Psychology/Sociology. Related majors that match your highest scored category: Anthropology, Biology, Chemistry, Counseling, Criminal Justice, Political Science, Psychology, Industrial/Organizational (I&O) Psychology, Sociology, Social Work.

Consider all majors in your OTHER high scoring categories. The right major for you will be something 1) you love and enjoy and 2) are really great at it. Consider adding a minor or double majoring. Please post your results in your myspace/blog/journal.

Psychology/Sociology

88%

Religion/Theology

75%

Biology/Chemistry/Geology

63%

Visual&amp;amp;amp;PerformingArts

56%

English/Journalism/Comm

44%

History/Anthropology

44%

Education/Counseling

38%

Physics/Engineering

38%

HR/BusinessManagement

38%

PoliticalScience/Philosophy

25%

French/German/Spanish

25%

Accounting/Finance/Econ

19%

Mathematics/Statistics

Nursing/AthleticTraining

WHAT MAJOR IS RIGHT FOR YOU?
created with QuizFarm.com

2006-04-25T19:56:00.000+08:00

a study on how school is useful,

6am - 4pm : go to school and back, the most important part of the day. presumably you learned some useful 'stuff' unless its a free day whereby 90% of the day is a free period and you are forced to self study

5pm - 7pm: read chem insights, bored? swap to physics! bored of physics? go back to chem, or do math! want some leisure reading? read conceptual physics!

dinner: oh i can tell that the water in this cup has an empirical formula of H20! and whats that! NaCl! OMG!

7:30 pm - *unspecified*: look! its language arts work to do! but such a boring poem :( ah well back to the all-time favourite standby chemistry! darn i feel like taking a break, lets play some bass! HOLY CRAP! the cables are gold plated! good conductors of electricity o_O whoaaa...

before bedtime: phew, such an eventful day, but i dont feel tired. i know! i'll read a book to make my eyes tired! hooo baby... four continents, mr achebe is such an inspiring writer... sigh... euhh... zzzzzzzz

.........................

yup, schoolwork can defnitely be applied to all aspects of daily life

2006-04-24T16:58:00.000+08:00

Which Lost character are you? WITH PICS!!!!!!!

You are Charlie! You have been done wrong. You are over-shadowed by people and you don't like it. You don't like feeling insignificant. You have addictions (it doesn't always have to be drugs) that you are trying to fix in your life. You could also be called 'dumb' but that's okay everyone needs a laugh every once in a while.
Take this quiz!

Quizilla |
Join

| Make A Quiz | More Quizzes | Grab Code

.....................

its not okay when people call me 'dumb', especially if they dont know what it means or are themselves

2006-04-10T21:54:00.000+08:00

i shall degenerate this blog further by limiting it for stupid things like quizzes and the mindless like to suit someone like me no?

of course that is until:
-i learn how to convey valid points in a less abrasive manner
-people stop developing opinions which they keep until they dump it on you in one shot and bury you. (yeah right like thats gonna happen)
-i learn to halt my innate ability to make everything i say a whine. OH WHINE WHINE! oh and technically that isnt sarcasm cause everything i say is a whine no?

so lets get the ball rolling shall we?

...............

( ) smoked a cigarette
( ) crashed a friend's car
( ) stolen a car
(x) been in love - how would i know what true love really is?
( ) been dumped - you can't lose what you never had
( ) shoplifted
( ) been fired
(X) been in a fist fight - huh
(x) snuck out of your parent's house
(x) had feelings for someone who didn't have them back - too much
( ) been arrested
( ) gone on a blind date
(x) lied to a friend - rarely, thankfully
( ) skipped school
( ) seen someone die - i wouldn't have liked it, all the good people die and the bad ones live on
(x) had a crush on one of your internet friends - my name doesn't start with f
( )been to Canada
( ) been to Mexico
(x) been on a plane
( ) purposely set a part of yourself on fire
( ) eaten sushi
( ) been skiing
(x) been at a concert - i suppose the reuben morgan thing at faith methodist counts
( ) taken painkillers
(x) miss someone right now - primary school mates and lost friends
( ) laid on your back and watched cloud shapes go by - i wish i could though
( ) made a snow angel
( ) had a tea party
(x) flown a kite
(x) built a sand castle
(x) gone puddle jumping
( ) played dress up
( ) jumped into a pile of leaves
( ) gone sledding
(x) cheated while playing a game
(x) been lonely - oho, but most of it was self induced and i liked it
(x) fallen asleep at work/school - huh? what?
( ) used a fake ID
( ) watched the sun set - i wish
(x) felt an earthquake - yeah, that pseudo one that happened the other time
( ) slept beneath the stars
(x) been tickled
( ) been robbed
(x) been misunderstood - i don't dare comment for fear of comments, bah
(x) petted a kangaroo/reindeer/goat - well i pulled the kangaroo's tail and it also kicked me, ouch.
( ) won a contest
( ) run a red light/stop sign - i dont suppose jaywalking/running counts
( ) been suspended from school
( ) been in a car crash
(x) had braces - -.-
(x) felt like an outcast/third person
( ) eaten a whole pint of ice cream in one night - one day i'm gonna save up to buy a tub of haegen dazs
(x) had deja vu
( ) danced in the moonlight
( ) liked the way you looked
(x) witnessed a crime - yeah in shanghai
(x) questioned your heart - too many times
( ) been obsessed with post-it notes
(x) squished barefoot through the mud - yeah it was enjoyable until i felt something wriggling
(x) been lost - in what aspect?
(x) been on the opposite side of the country - how bout when i go to school everyday
(x) swam in the ocean
(x) felt like dying - oho
(x) cried yourself to sleep - oh boohoo, like you care
(x) played cops and robbers - actually it was called 'robotics' or sth
( ) recently colored with crayons
( ) sung karaoke
(x) paid for a meal with only coins - yeah i tortured that poor auntie's nephew
(x) done something you told yourself you wouldn't - too many times.
(x) made prank phone calls - mhmm.
(x) laughed until some kind of beverage came out of your nose - water?
( ) caught a snowflake on your tongue
(x) danced in the rain - actually i sat on a wooden fence metres away from shelter and sang 'we are the reason' to myself
( ) written a letter to Santa Claus
( ) been kissed under the mistletoe
(x) watched the sun rise with someone you care about - well we were in the west, yg5, but i suppose its the thought that counts =/
(x) blown bubbles
( ) made a bonfire on the beach
(x) crashed a party - do you mean forcing myself in and being a parasite? yeah
( ) gone rollerskating
(x) had a wish come true
( ) jumped off a bridge
(x) ate dog/cat food - dog biscuits are yummy
( ) told a complete stranger you loved them
( ) kissed a mirror - well it wasnt really kissing when i pressed my ulcer against it to see how blood looked on a mirror
(x) sang in the shower
( ) had a dream that you married someone - no
(x) glued your hand to something
( ) kissed a fish
( ) sat on a roof top
(x) screamed at the top of your lungs
( ) done a one-handed cartwheel
(x) talked on the phone for more than 5 hours
(x) stayed up all night - twice now, in ian's mansion
( ) picked and ate an apple right off the tree
(x) climbed a tree - well not really, i put my hand, got sap on it, and decided it was gross
( ) had a tree house
( ) scared to watch a scary movie alone
(x) believe in ghosts - the spirit
( ) have more than 30 pairs of shoes
(x) worn a really ugly outfit to school
( ) gone streaking
(x) gone doorbell ditching - yeah in hotels
( ) played gay chicken - ?!
(x) pushed into a pool/hot tub with all your clothes on - more like carried and tossed
( ) broken a bone
(x) been easily amused
( ) caught a fish then ate it
( ) caught a butterfly
(x) laughed so hard you cried
( ) cried so hard you laughed
(x) cheated on a test
(x) forgotten someone's name
( ) gone skinny dipping in a pool/hot tub
( ) been threatened to be kicked out of your house or been kicked out of your house - i think i kicked myself out.

2006-04-05T17:48:00.000+08:00

i despise people who: refuse to admit they are wrong when they are.

...........

is death really that bad? i suppose it isnt, you just end your life and voila, no more worries.

the only reason why i wont jump off a damn hdb flat right now is because i dont want to cause grief to people. its not fair to bring misery to people who dont ask for it.

but oh well, i suppose its the people who care (minus one as of yesterday) that keep me alive i guess.

that and the fact that throwing away a God gift wont make life after death very pleasant.

.............

everyone in the world should be equipped with some sort of hate-detection device, it detects how much people hate you, duh. you obviously have the right to know, contrary to some people who hate without telling the person (why).

whether you are humble enough to accept it or too stupid and big headed to care is your problem.

it will be equipped with a 0.00000000000000000000000000000000000000000001% version of halo as well; just enough to kill the person in which the device is located. when the device senses too much hatred, the person will be labelled scum of the earth and be instantly incinerated.

how cool will that be, then maybe the world would be a better place.

.............

i have no idea what the heck i am doing with my life anymore. everything's a mess and i'm trying to find pieces to pick up.

thank you if you've bothered to read this post properly, now you can proceed to dismiss it as whining, good day.

2006-03-26T18:47:00.000+08:00

i decline to blog much these days for the fear that i might be giving scandalous people ammunition. so there, you should know who you are.

i'm sick of chrisong being mentioned and talked about by people who know ZILCH about what the hell is going on.

just so you know.

.....................

i despise people who:

1. are trolls.
2. are stupid.
3. are shallow.
4. are obsessed over soccer.
5. are hypocritical.
6. mindlessly abide to rules without thinking.
7. are not upright. (read: slandering behind backs)
8. dont think.
9. are himbos.
10. are egoistic with no real reason.
11. are parasites.
12. live in denial.
13. are stereotypical.
14. are posers
15. have nothing but their authority.
16. go after someone purely for physical appearance then delude themselves into feeling they aren't shallow by extolling non-existant qualities of that person.
17. do things mindlessly without reason.
18. do things just to best other people.
19. judge without knowing the person; based on reputation
20. try to sound intelligent and fail.
21. try to be sarcastic and fail.
22. are of the opinion that 'i am damn good.'
23. are the opinion that 'i am damn good, and you suck.'
24. overrate themselves.
25. are overrated by the general public.
26. obsess over sports.
27. have warped perceptions of thought.

...................

i'll think of more, guranteed.

2006-03-14T17:44:00.000+08:00

WAM camp is stupid. i am never going to join another guitar module with the word 'beginner' in it. arrogant as it sounds, i hate degrading myself. so there.

i am learning NOTHING, at least the half hour messages in the morning are good. stupid flirts ,bimbos, show-offs, sluts, people with unfounded egos should all be rounded up and be shot by the Russian supersniper Zaitsev one by one.

but trolls are different, they should be bunched together. then i take a gravity gun, grab a explosive barrel, and fling it at them. watch them burn and scream.

play half life 2 for a demonstration, the trolls bear lots of similarities to the zombies.

........................

oh and chris? next time if you dont give 'half a banana', dont pretend that you do. it's alright you dont need to pretend like you care, i've already grown used to the fact that people dont give HALF A FREAKING DICK BANANA about my screwed up existence.

it hurts, in case you decide to care.

2006-03-10T21:53:00.000+08:00

the march 'holiday' has finally come, and about time. i really need a break to catch up on my schoolwork.

..............

at todays assembly, after listening to the sec ones screw up the pledge, i felt like taking a machine gun and slaughtering the whole lot of shrimps. yes that means i wasnt listening to the useless hypocritical devotion.

'it's the thought that counts'. i suppose that applied to the current situation. at it's bare minimum, my thought was to kill the sec ones, and later snipe all the stupid prize presenters and awardees with a Russian Mosin-Nagant (courtesy of War of The Rats).

does the thought really count? i think it does, laws and rules that bind the world aside, i would shoot the bloody morons without hesitation. which made me think about just how much laws and rules influence our thoughts.

i dont know about everybody but judging from my view, these laws and rules influence your thoughts AFTER you come up with the original idea, not before.

example thought process:
GAH BLOODY SEC ONES, SHOOT THEM ALL! (i hate that mousy looking guy.)
but where am i going to get a machine gun?
I DONT WANNA GET HANGEDDDD!
i dont wanna go to hell.
bah so i cant kill them after all :(

oh well, on a side note i should stop trying to think so destructively.

...............

on the bus ride home i also realised that rayner exists to interfere and screw up my life. he screws up especially the things that mean something, albeit alot to me. i will give examples, though really bad ones to justify how much i hate him.

lwmc: my spiritual touchstone, befouled
yg5: possibly my most beloved group of people in the world, polluted
guitar: one of my few real interests in life, spoiled
lw music team: my reason for learning the guitar, intruded

heck, even the upcoming music and worship workshop has been invaded by hypocrisy.

and yes i know i'm being very hypocritical for hating someone because he's screwing up my religious life, but i really dont know anymore.

....................

i guess i just express my thoughts on this page, self-concious of the irony and hypocrisy. maybe what i'm really trying to convey is how freaking insecure i am.

gah.

2006-03-06T20:36:00.000+08:00

there is a certain sense of annoyance when one gets up on a monday morning to go to school. take today for example, i couldnt even remember HOW to get up. like what time i should be getting up etcetc, but then again that could just be me.

...........

chapel was good, despite my first impression at seeing that sermon would be replaced by a video. the video conveyed a powerful message that forgiveness is so great, especially after that stupid nonsensical row last night about hating people and defending people for whatever reason.

critics will say that i sounds like daryl when i say i have no right to hate others when a man forgave his sister's murderer, but cant do anything about that can i? i have just opened yet another portal for me to be a hypocrite, sigh.

............

the funny thing is that when walking to pe, i realised that i was doing exactly what i was doing last year. i have got to do all my work. i have to do work immediately so that it does not clog up.

bah work work work, i hate it but i have to do it.

*attempts cpr on my work ethic*

...........

i cant stand unemotional people. what is the point of clapping after the video? do they think it's some kind of joke? that it's cool to clap and be unemotional?

bah.

i would really hate to see people that dont know chrisong stand around looking bored and indifferent when people are saddened.

yes i think i would hate that.

2006-03-05T23:29:00.000+08:00

gosh am i really that horrid? i shant be so arrogant as to say it's other people's fault that i'm horrid to them. so sorry all.

YES HOW DAMN BLOODY WHINY OF ME INNIT?!

2006-03-02T19:54:00.000+08:00

what an incredibly annoying day.

........

highest in class for ihs hypothesis, but then again like 6 other people got 18/20 as well. should i feel any elation at being stereotypically intelligent for once? no i dont think so, go me.

........

HEY EVERYBODY LOOK AT ME I AM GOING TO GET THREE OUT OF TWENTY FIVE FOR MY A MATH TEST.

a math is stupid, why on earth are we going to be tested on last year's crap all over again? dont these morons realise that the system is such that NORMAL PEOPLE conveniently forget everything after the exams are over? so useless, gah.

........

i am a faker for acting like i know nothing but still getting 20/25 for lang arts a. but of course lang arts b ought to burn for sheer uselessness in the concept of the retest.

'since some people cheated to get brilliant essays and hence high marks, we are going to set a retest and take the best of two.'

gosh that almost sounds more pointless than ncc.

........

SNAKES ARE LEGAL IN SINGAPORE?! I WANT.

........

there are two types of academic high scorers. those that have passion and general interest for the subjects (re. tim and kaijun), and those that have no brains and just mindlessly mug for the sake of mugging and/or just to get marks (re. david chan and kenny).

of course the latter (of the latter) ought to be shot, so there.

2006-03-01T22:39:00.000+08:00

founders day is useless but i suppose i have no right to complain about nothing.

sorry sir and madam.

................

i think im useless im self-aware of my flaws but i dont do anything about them. take me being a boring moron for one.

well obviously i dont know how to improve right? since people won't bother to tell me.

yes i know im a horrible conversationalist because im so boring which is why i cant really hold a proper conversation with ian about meaningful stuff. yeah that and he once saying that i was boring.

oh dear maybe thats why people like to dao and ignore me. sir likes to frequently ignore me until i say something useful on msn.

bah oh well.

........................

khsadjghksdhgkhskdhkahkshgfaskjgkjsdhkghsdkjghksdhkgjsdkj

2006-02-28T23:55:00.000+08:00

Frail
Jars of Clay
(Instrumental)

<----------------------first section------------------------->
|---2-----------2-----------2-----2-----------2-----------2(3)-|
|---------3-----------3-------3---------3-----------3-------3--|
|-----0-----0-----0-----0-----------0-----0-----0-----0--------|
|-------2-----2-----2-----2-----------2-----2-----2-----2------|
|--------------------------------------------------------------|
|-0-----------------------------0------------------------------|

|---------0-----------0-------------------0-----------0---------|
|---3-----------3-----------3---3---3-----------3-----------3---|
|-----0-----0-----0-----0-------------0-----0-----0-----0-----0-|
|-------2-----2-----2-------------------2-----2-----2-----2-----|
|-3-----------------------3---2---0-----------------------------|
|---------------------------------------------------------------|

Part 2

|---0-----2-----3-----2-----3--------3-----2-----0-----2-----3-----|
|-----3-----3-----3-----3-----3--------3-----3-----3-----3-----3---|
|-------0-----0-----0-----0-----0--------0-----0-----0-----0-----0-|
|------------------------------------------------------------------|
|---------------------------------3--------------------------------|
|-3----------------------------------------------------------------|

p
|---3-----2------0-----2-----3--------3-----2-----0-----2-----3-------|
|-----3-----3------3-----3-----3--------3-----3-----3-----3-----3-----|
|-------0-----0------0-----0-----0--------0-----0-----0-----0-----0---|
|---------------------------------------------------------------------|
|-----------------------------------3-------------------------------0-|
|-3-------------------------------------------------------------------|

Part 3 (!)

<-----------------first section----------------->|-----------|

hpp

|*---2-----2-----2-----2---2320----------0-----------0---------*|
|*-----3-----3-----3-----3---------3-----------3-----------3---*|
|*-------2-----2-----2---------0-----0-----0-----0-----0-----0-*|
|*-0-----------------------------------2-----2-----2-----2-----*|
|*-------------------------------3-----------------------------*|
|*-------------------------------------------------------------*|

|-0-------------------0-----------0---------|
|-------3---3---3-----------3-----------3---|
|---0-------------0-----0-----0-----0-----0-|
|-------------------2-----2-----2-----2-----|
|-----3---2---0-----------------------------|
|-------------------------------------------|

Part 1 (modified)

|---2-----------0-----------2-----2-----------0-----------2---|
|---------3-----------3-------3---------3-----------3-------3-|
|-----0-----0-----0-----0-----------0-----0-----0-----0-------|
|-------2-----2-----2-----2-----------2-----2-----2-----2-----|
|-------------------------------------------------------------|
|-0-----------------------------0-----------------------------|

Part 1 (modified 2)

p
|---2-----------2-----------2-----2-----------2-2-0-----0-|
|---------3-----------3-------3---------3-----------3-----|
|-----0-----0-----0-----0-----------0-----0-----------0---|
|-------2-----2-----2-----2-----------2-----2-------------|
|---------------------------------------------------------|
|-0-----------------------------0-------------------------|

part 1 x4
part 2
part 3 x4
part 1 x2
part 2
part 3 x2
part 1 x2
part 2
part 3 x4
part 1 x4
part 1 modified x2
part 1 x2
part 1 modified 2
part 1 x4
part 1 1st section x8

..........................

Music reduced to words, numbers and symbols that dont do justice to the piece. Is this the view of the scientific mind?

2006-02-27T22:48:00.000+08:00

BAH.

so there.

2006-02-23T21:17:00.000+08:00

when will people realise that good results =/= being smart? when they actually think of course, a quality lacking in a large percentage of 50% of acs and 99.9% of acs barker.

but of course all this is very stereotypical and david chan observerish so i shall stop assuming this tone of superiority.

....................

some people ought to be shot with my arsenal of darts (and impaled and burnt) simply cause they see church activities as chores. things they have to do for the sake of doing.

what on earth, service is about putting your heart into it, scum.

......................

i think i'm slipping back to my old slackish self and a being moron, gah.

2006-02-21T20:56:00.000+08:00

bah i think all tests and exams should be open book to prevent mindless memorisers from scoring high marks and that people too lazy to memorise crap can actually have a chance to do well.

crap

2006-02-19T23:37:00.000+08:00

eric took the free ColorQuiz.com personality test!

"Suffering from the effects of those things which a..."

Click here to read the rest of the results.

that has to be the most accurate test i've taken so far. but i'm not sure people will bother reading mine, they just want to take the test and find out about themselves. i should know, that's what i did (:

........................

worship today was very good, elaine always suceeds; probably because her worships are always heartfelt and she chooses all the right songs.

yg was detached, chaotic and unproductive, but oh well at least rayner wasnt there.

2006-02-18T17:10:00.000+08:00

ahh bible study was thought-stimulating and intriguing for those with minds. which brings to my mind a quotable quote.

"i dont have a mind of my own." - rayner the troll that ought to be burnt and impaled.

what a moron, he should stop assuming that he has a freaking mind in the first place.

..................

but stupidity aside, bible study brought out the fact that our fellow and beloved yg5 members THINK! applause! (remember, the key phrase is 'stupidity aside') yes genesis is a very interesting book and not the detail listing and procedure description it seems to be, one only needs to look deeper.

or prompted to anyway.

i am so happy that my joy at meeting yg5 has returned, despite having to share the couch with the less-than-intelligent pond scum. maybe it's the setting or whatever, but everyone jsut seems more open than when in church. blame the horrible toilet-like setting of acs classrooms.

oh well i feel yg5 has the potential to go very far, apart from a few stumbling blocks like the aforementioned troll. stumbling blocks in terms of affecting the intellectual and spiritual growth average of the yg, and making people hate him so that they will be stumbled and hence not be able to bond very effectively.

essentially, rayner is a moron that ought to be impaled through his rectum then burnt with his own fats, there.

....................

the weekend with tonnes of work, i should start to use the time taken from ncc to do my work so that i can slack off the weekends. oh well.

2006-02-16T21:35:00.000+08:00

this week is crap. i cant wait for tomorrow when it will all be over. my g2 pen went from full to 1/3, blame stupid lang arts and ihs essays with useless questions.

i only hope that bible study tomorrow will be the light at the end of the tunnel.

2006-02-14T19:45:00.000+08:00

Valentine's day and a holiday tomorrow, i resist the urge to send a stupid sms or even have the nerve to ask someone out.

but wait... what urge?

2006-02-12T21:02:00.000+08:00

do this if you think you know me. if not then go away, i dont need....GAH OKAY NEVERMIND JUST DO IT (:

2006-02-12T19:34:00.000+08:00

i am pissed, fking pissed over today. church was bad, yg was bad.

church was bad because worship was horrible, result of 2 hours of practice and incompetent musicians who cant play in a band and actually LISTEN to the rest of the band. that and morons to the left and right of me browsing through pictures of themselves taken on their richass pieces of plastic called handphones.

bah what is happening?

yg has more that lost it's usual happy and welcoming feel, now it's just a crap hole of human infestation that is nothing to look forward to at all.

when will scum stop coming into our yg? not like it isnt big enough. it's freaking 20+ people, more than a darned school class.

noone gives a damn about learning anymore, everyone just comes for stupid shallow reasons.

...............

oh go to hell rayner.

................

i know i shouldnt be getting so pissed over something like church, but i cant help it looking back on how much i used to look forward to church and just find out today that there's nothing to look forward to anymore.

sigh sorry if anyone got offended.

2006-02-09T20:17:00.000+08:00

Quotable quotes,

'Groping only feels nice when it's done by a girl.'

'When i fantasize i think about making out on the bus, makes it more risky and thrilling cause everyone's around.'

ahem.

......................

oh dear i am losing my frustration that i get when i go to school and actually feel like doing work. though adv math is horribly draggy even though i still benefit from the lessons despite how 'sian' i am. i suspect my dread whenever i see an a.math period is due to bad timetabling. that or the knowledge that history would be more fun, poop.

........................

i am tired of listening to my sister try and display intelligence through useless and meaningless things.

examples include:
-claiming that a freshly mopped floor is clean and thus soapy and thus a reason to WASH a piece of toast that drops on it.
-bragging about guessing a composer correctly on the radio (*rolls eyes*)
-using her hands to peel off burnt chicken skin instead of using a fork and knife while complaining about the temperature of the chicken, because fork and knives are difficult to wash.
-dismissing claims that gepers are nerds because people 'are jealous of us.

and of course my favourite,

-saying she's smart cause of results and a 280< psle score, *bang*

seriously, get real. how whiny and bitchy of me.

.....................

oh well time to go and do ihs essay which requires me to try and utilise my limited general knowledge of singapore history. hmph.

2006-02-07T21:02:00.000+08:00

Name five of life's simple pleasures that you like most, then pick five people to do the same. Try to be original and creative and not use things that someone else has already used.

1. Taking a long bus ride from school to home on 33 alone.
2. Trying to find a meaning for life
3. Staring into nothingness and thinking
4. Being home alone
5. Walking when i'm not in a hurry or tired

Ian the lame fool, chris x 2, kenny and rayner just for entertainment's sake

.....................

But i am tired, of alot of things, alot of stuff, but since i cant do anything about most of them i shant be a STUPID idiot and whine.

bye bye

2006-02-06T23:31:00.000+08:00

oh dear i think im a moron please ignore my stupidity.

2006-02-06T20:59:00.000+08:00

before i say anything please note the time. 9:01 or some where around there. indication of writing right after watching a damn show on channel NEWS asia. now prepare yourself for a rant.

.................

i think johannes ought to burn, BURN. but about the death of people though pyromatics, refer to the previous post. one should not allow stereotypical morons to voice their 'opinions' on a mature issue like the gep-mainstream divide, especially on national television.

this is not helped by the fact that one of the most prominent trolls in the whole damn acs was also allowed to give his 2 cents worth, which is a bloody ripoff, by the way.

how the heck would this drama dick know anything about what geps do after school and what we talk about if he claims we lack social skills? means he hasn't tried to socialise with us, so htf would he know what the heck we do? we have LIVES, probably more fulfilling than anything a moron like you would call a 'living'.

..................

the whole stereotypical-ness of the whole thing is just a perfect excuse for stupid people to try and sound intellectual. yep, thats right.

OHO FEAR THE FUNNY ACCENT OF THE GEPS! AAAH PRISSY PEOPLE. wtf.

right, so we have no lives, are geeks, nerds, and talk about nothing but school and work and shit like that. how very rayner like in... in... gah cant find a proper word like perception or thinking cause these people are obviously incapable of such things.

gosh.

stupidity and stereotypes never cease to infuriate. (irony of blog address noted.)

...................

burn human scum.

2006-02-05T21:12:00.000+08:00

some people ought to burn. BURN, and die agonisingly in the flames. DIE. damn hypocrites, posers, jocks,trolls. gah i hate this, HATE THEM.

KJSAHFkHASDKGHKDASHGKHADSKGHKJADSHKJGHKJADS.

or maybe i just hate this person called rayner, who still insists that i am a troll while remainingly totally unaware or his own damn heritage.

yeah right i hate more than one person, i hate PEOPLE. they are the scum of the earth. all humans should die and let the animals roam the earth.

yeah i wouldnt mind dying if everyone else dies right?

2006-02-03T19:54:00.000+08:00

i think i am sick, sick of everyone's attitude towards chrisong's leaving. obviously it's the stereotype that i will be grieved and crying my damn eyes out over that, i may be grieved yes, but not for the reasons that everyone perceives.

i think i'm sick of people treating it like a joke, that it's no big deal, that i should just 'GET OVER IT'. well i will, just not yet, so stop trying to dictate what i should do with my life.

i think people should just LEAVE ME ALONE. go away, bye bye.

i think.

yes i do.

...............................

in case morons are wondering whether i was faking my stomach cramps, i wasnt. there, dont believe me, see if i care.

2006-02-01T22:32:00.000+08:00

Things to do before i die: go through tomorrow without being too grumpy.

.......................

Almighty God, The Great I Am,
Immovable Rock, Omnipotent, Powerful,
Awesome Lord.
Victorious Warrior, Commanding King of Kings,
Mighty Conqueror and the only time,
The only time I ever saw him run,
Was when...

He ran to me,
He took me in His arms,
Held my head to His chest,
Said "My son's come home again!"
Lifted my face,
Wiped the tears from my eyes,
With forgiveness in His voice He said
"Son, do you know I still love You?"

He caught me By surprise, When God ran...

The day I left home,
I knew I'd broken His heart.
And I wondered then, if things could ever be the same.
Then one night,
I remembered His love for me.
And down that dusty road, ahead I could see,
It was the only time,
It was the only time I ever saw Him run.
And then...

He caught me by surprise.
And He brought me to my knees.
When God ran... I saw Him run to me.

I was so ashamed, all alone, and so far away.
But now I know, that He's been waiting for this day...

...........................

another song to add to the compilation, i presume.

2006-02-01T00:12:00.000+08:00

Things to do before i die: regain my work ethic

......................

sigh, back to school ~~day after~~ tomorrow. how mundane. i think i have degenerated back into my sluggish slackish self.

but chinese homework is so incredibly boring and pointless?

ah well.

......................

chinese new year has come and gone, not much interactions with my relatives, but the few were good enough i guess.

the rest were all fake and hypocritical and shallow and stuck up and what not.

went to simlim today to get a graphics card amongst other accessories for the computer, swarms and swarms of the human infestation. i hate it. i hate humans. they are the most useless creatures on earth, they cant survive without the aid of tools made from a result of 'superior intellect'.

you want superior intellect? if humans were so smart, then they should create a damn device to turn us into orcas (i refuse to call them killer whales as its such a crude name for such a magnificent creature). but then again, that doesnt constitute intellect does it? bah i am driving myself into circles.

......................

oh dad please do leave my room and let me be a stupid emokid.

2006-01-30T21:52:00.000+08:00

Things to do before i die: keep a clean room for more than 2 days

.............................

oh dear i think my sister is intellectually retarded. if even ME ERIC LEE JUN REN can bash her with wit then there must be something wrong. TEEHEE

maybe one day she might learn that invading people's rooms ISNT very polite. especially the abode of a hermit like me. YES I AM A HERMIT AND IM PROUD OF IT WOOHOO. ahem.

gah, slap all those who dont respect the code of the hermit, which is as follows. (i will be using himself cause i cant be bothered with the whole himself/herself nonsense)

1. a hermit shall only reveal himself to the outside world when absolutely neccesary. (e.g. school, mealtimes, church)

2. a hermit should have a pet to keep him company, failing that, a soft toy will be almost sufficient.

3. a hermit should have ~~A COMPUTER~~ some form of communication in his room that can connect with the outside world.

4. a hermit should have a musical instrument. ~~to while away long hours which are not spent on the computer~~

5. a hermit should have a fridge in his room, and a microwave to heat up those frozen things.

6. a hermit's abode should be made as sound resistant as possible in case of noise pollution from an ivory monster.

and last but not least,

7. a hermit SHALL NOT BE DISTURBED, so keep out. morons.

...........................

lalala what is this homework you speak of?

2006-01-30T00:35:00.000+08:00

Things to do before i die: make sure that chris feels missed when she leaves at the end of march

...................

what a boring day it was. visiting relatives which i hardly speak to. putting up with an abomination of a toddler at my grandma's house. looking upon stuck up richasses with distaste.

wishing i had just stayed home anyway.

oh well.

....................

i want a dog, a small furry animal to love. to keep me company in my room.

and i want it to be all MINE. i'm not gonna put up with my sister mooning over it and acting as if she really cares about it.

if she cant even take care of a freaking turtle how can she take care of a dog? i take care of 2 large fish tanks and my terrapin AND her turtle. stupid hypocritical 'animal lovers'.

....................

oh christine i love you so, you are there for me when amusement cannot be found, when i need something to love and hold and touch, to stroke you to feel you. to hear the sweetness of your voice. you make me smile.

damn i love my guitar =)

2006-01-29T20:49:00.000+08:00

Ten Top Trivia Tips about Eric!

Medieval knights put the skin of eric on their sword handles to improve the grip.
Eric can live for up to a week without a head.
Over 46,000 pieces of eric float on every square mile of ocean.
Research indicates that eric will be attracted to people who have recently eaten bananas.
When provoked, eric will swivel the tip of his abdomen and shoot a jet of boiling chemicals at his attacker!
Birds do not sleep in eric, though they may rest in him from time to time!
Eric is the sacred animal of Thailand.
Grapes explode if you put them inside eric!
India tested its first nuclear eric in 1974.
The pigment Indian Yellow was manufactured from the urine of cows fed only on eric.

......................

oh dear. so now i'm a bombardier beetle and a cockroach and a missile and 7 other things which are not in my general knowledge. bish.

2006-01-28T21:43:00.000+08:00

Things to do before i die: get baptised

............................

we are the reason that he gave his life
we are the reason that he suffered and died
to a world that was lost he gave all he could give
to show us the reason to live.

...

i finally found a reason for living
its in giving every part of my heart to Him
in all that i do every word that i say
i'll be giving my all just for Him
for Him

.........................

oh dear i think that means that i have GOT TO have a purpose for life. sigh.

2006-01-26T20:43:00.000+08:00

Things to do before i die: kneel in the rain and cry

...........

my mind is blank now, (contrary to popular belief it ISNT usually like this, i am not an airhead himbo). maybe being with chongwee for too long has fried my mind.

i think some people in the sec 4 level are so incredibly stupid and devoid of any intellectualism at all that its rather sad.

i'm not talking about myself you retards.

2006-01-24T21:04:00.000+08:00

i think that the timetable today is but an illustration of the meaningless of life. what is the point of having more than one section of a subject in a day? as if it isnt enough

and i thought they only did that in primary school where there were 4 subjects.

school is inherently useless and unproductive in acheiving the purpose of education. in a moronic paper-obsessed country like singapore the only purpose of school is to obtain papers through papers (through papers through papers through papers)

gah i think i shall stop here in case people think i'm trying to act mature.

.....................

i hate this period of my life, its difficult to understand and trying of my faith.

one more month and the suffering will be over, or intensified further.

2006-01-22T21:40:00.000+08:00

gah this doesnt make sense, agitation is reborn even though i almost got rid of it through and after ldp. its as if this agitation exists just to be removed.

but oh well, OIA

..............

after a pretty good service (which a certain moron decided to miss), i see willing hearts coming up the stage to try out for worship, i gladly lend them christine to try out.

willing hearts? then what the heck is rayner doing there? scrap that

look, he cant even play, cant read chords, and most of all obviously doesnt understand the significance of serving in a music team. what an insult.

maybe he thinks its cool, thinks that he can go hang out with 'cool' people. wait, what is this 'thinking' i speak of?

shallowness never fails to infuriate.

..............

does that add on to my list of why the world is screwed up?

2006-01-19T20:49:00.000+08:00

"The tower crane is a modern form of balance crane. Fixed to the ground, tower cranes often give the best combination of height and lifting capacity and are used in the construction of tall buildings. To save space, the vertical part of the crane is often built in a well in the centre of the building, which is then converted to a lift (elevator) shaft when the crane is dismantled. A horizontal boom is balanced asymmetrically across the top of the tower. Its short arm carries a counterweight of concrete blocks, and its long arm carries the lifting gear. The crane operator sits in a cabin at the top of the tower.

A tower crane is usually assembled by a telescopic crane of smaller lifting capacity but greater height, and in the case of tower cranes that have risen while constructing very tall skyscrapers a smaller crane will sometimes be lifted to the roof of the completed tower to dismantle the tower crane afterward. A self-assembling tower crane has been demonstrated, which lifts itself off the ground using jacks, allowing the next section of the tower to be inserted at ground level."

............................

there you go sir, told you they could dismantle themselves.

2006-01-18T22:25:00.000+08:00

gah on the long ride home after a fruitful music practice i realised that i am emotionally drained..

a very few issues, some sworn to secrecy, some just plain confusing.

chrisong is migrating to australia this march along with the rest of her family as her mom hsa found a good job there and ib will be cheaper for chris since singapore's, or rather acs(i)'s one is too expensive

the confusing bit is that i see this as more of a blessing than as a cause to grieve and be depressed over.

(does this mean i'm over her?)

......................

i have no doubt that this is God's work, prayer power? i think i've been praying for all the wrong things.

stupid things like 'oho please let us be friends again'. i think i forgot to add the back part of 'so that i have a better chance'.

about a week before the ldp, realisation just hit me that i was praying for the wrong thing, seeing it from a different perspective.

deluded.

hence i started praying for myself to let go, to rid myself of all distractions that link to chris. God stepped in and let her migrate, out of singapore, out of my life.

thank you Lord.

2006-01-16T22:47:00.000+08:00

You scored as Goth.

Goth

81%

Geek

69%

Punk/Rebel

50%

Loner

44%

Drama nerd

44%

Ghetto gangsta

31%

Stoner

25%

Prep/Jock/Cheerleader

19%

What's Your High School Stereotype?
created with QuizFarm.com

.............

uh oh.. at least im furthest from a troll

2006-01-15T15:15:00.000+08:00

day 1: mud and crap
day 2: mud, crap, roads, a mountain-turned-waterfall. and crap
day 3: THE SUN (!!!), dryness, fun activities, no freaking water in the toilets
day 4: useless war games with too many rules, thistles, scratched and burning shins, campfire and a mat accent
day 5: left, managed to see my beloved yg for a few seconds

verdict: not worth missing discipleship retreat for, but not bad enough to make school life preferable

.................

i am le tired. good night.

2006-01-10T10:36:00.000+08:00

koped from daryl's blog (obviously), hope he doesnt mind ahaha.

......................

[my name is]: Eric
[in the morning i am]: Sluggish, stony and contemplative at the same time
[all i need is]: God, from which all things are possible
[i'm afraid of]: Being misjudged.
[i dream about]: packing for ldp. (i only remember last night's dream)

favourites
[colour]: Black
[number]: 4
[subject]: Animals (omg that sounds so primary school esque)
[clothing brand]: None in particular
[shoe brand]: Adidas
[sport to play]: ~~hockey~~
[drink]: Atomic apple slurpee
[animal]: Orca.
[holiday]: New Year's Day.
[favourite line from a movie]: cant remember any
[band]: none i just look up songs that i like

who...
[makes you laugh the most]: Chong Wee duh.
[makes you smile]: Chrisong
[gives you a funny feeling when you see them]: Chrisong
[has a crush on you]: ?!
[easiest to talk to]: Chriskng

do you ever...
[sit on the internet all day waiting for someone special to i.m. you?]: i sit on the internet all day anyway.
[save aol/aim conversations]: No.
[wish you were a member of the opposite sex]: sometimes.
[cry because of someone saying something to you]: Yes.

have you ever...
[fallen for your best friend]: No.
[been rejected]: Yeah
[rejected someone]: No.
[used someone]: Yup.
[been cheated on]: No.
[done something you regret]: Obviously.

who was the last person
[you talked to on the phone]: My mum. -.-
[hugged]: Sally
[you instant messaged]: Daryl about drinking fishtank water (which i did from my turtle tank)
[you laughed with]: Daryl

do you / are you
[smoke cigarettes]: No.
[obsessive]: Hmm i think so
[could you live without the computer]: For now... no
[how many peeps are on your buddylist]: 122 but i talk to like 5 of them
[what's your favorite food]: Pizza
[fruit]: Grapes which have seeds but have their seeds removed for munching pleasure.
[drink alcohol]: No.
[like watching sunrises or sunset]: Yes but the waking time is undesirable
[what hurts the most]: Backstabbing.
[trust others way too easily]: Nope.

number..
[of times you have had your heart broken]: a few
[of hearts you have broken]: cant remember but i think i might have once or twice unconciously
[of continents I have lived in]: 1
[of drugs taken illegally]: None.
[of tight friends]: 4.
[of cds that i own]: Uhh cant be bothered to count the antiques from p3.
[of books]: No idea.
[of scars on my body]: Shrug.
[of things in my past that I regret]: 1,2,3...

pick one..
[marry perfect friend or perfect lover]: Friend.
[cats or dogs]: Dogs.
[1 or 2 pillows]: Can i have both?
[with or without ice cubes]: With.
[top or bottom]: o.O
[winter / spring / summer / fall]: Winter.
[night or day]: Night, duh.
[gloves or mittens]: Gloves.
[dressed or undressed]: Dressed.
[bunk or water bed]: Bunk.
[mtv or vh1]: What's that?
[ocean or pool]: Pool
[showers or baths]: Baths.
[love or lust]: Love.
[silver or gold]: Silver.
[diamonds or pearls]: Diamonds.

if you could..
[move anywhere]: New Zealand.
[meet one famous person]: Do i know any?
[live with one person the rest of your life]: No idea yet.
[name one thing you love]: Sally the 'rabbit'
[name one thing that embarrasses you]: Stupidity and shallowness.

lastly
[do you like school]: Yeah
[do you like to talk on the telephone]: Yah
[do you like to dance]: ...no
[do you sing in the shower]: No.
[do you think cheerleading is a sport]: Sluts.
[what's on your ceiling]: Light.
[what's the hardest thing about growing up]: Love.

2006-01-09T21:38:00.000+08:00

gosh who would've thought getting sick on purpose would be so darn HARD?!

lets see what i have tried:
-staying in the sun despite being a vampire for about an hour
-force feeding myself a tin of butter cookies with no water
-turn aircon down to 16 degrees celsius and wear shorts
-eat loads of toffees without water

AND IM STILL ALIVE AND HEALTHY OMG WHATS WRONG WITH ME.

i wish i had an allergy, then it would be so easy to fall sick as an when i like.

bah.

......................

ian and chriskng were both being morons on the bus ride home.

on one hand ian is avoiding us and then confiding in chriskng (or at least i think so)

then on the other chriskng is misinterpreting this as some kind of SOCIAL DIVISION and that our friendship will be lost FOREVER.

silly women.

2006-01-06T22:34:00.000+08:00

i realised that when you put the words of a song into a sentence instead of in lines it becomes alot more easier to remember and understand the meaning.

......................

worlds apart - jars of clay

I am the only one to blame for this, some how it all adds up the same.
Soaring on the wings of selfish pride, i flew too high and like Icarus i collide with a world i try so hard to leave behind.
To rid myself of all but love to give and die.
To turn away and not become another nail to pierce the skin of one who loves more deeply than the oceans, more abundant than the tear of a world embracing every heartache.

Can i be the one to sacrifice? Or grip the spear and watch the blood and water flow.

To love you - take my world apart
To need you - i am on my knees
To love you - take my world apart
To need you - broken on my knees

All said and done i stand alone amongst remains of a life i should not own
It takes all i am to believe in the mercy that covers me.

Did you really have to die for me?
All i am for all you are because what i need and what i believe are worlds apart.

And I pray

I look beyond the empty cross forgetting what my life has cost, and wipe away the crimson stains, and dull the nails that still remain.
More and more i need you now, i owe you mroe each passing hour.
Battle between grace and pride, give up not so long ago.
So steal my heart and take the pain, wash the feet and cleanse the pride.
Take the selfish take the weak, and all the things i cannot hide.
So take the beauty, take my tears, take this sin soaked heart and make it yours.
Take my world apart.
Take it now, take it now and server the ones that i despise, speak the words i can't deny.
Watch the world i used to love, fall to dust get blown away.
I look beyond the empty cross forgetting what my life has cost, and wipe away the crimson stains, and dull the nails that still remain.
So steal my heart and take the pain.
Take the selfish, take the weak, and all the things i cannot hide.
Take the beauty, take the tears, take my world apart.
Take my world apart.
And i pray, and i pray, and i pray.
Take my world apart.

Worlds apart.

2006-01-05T17:28:00.000+08:00

about this positive back-to-school attitude, could it be that it's subconcious joy from breaking out of stoning at home everyday immersed in boredom.

if thats the case then its just a matter of time before we get bored of school and crave the holidays again.

that's human nature for you.

...................

physics re-exam was easy but i will still need alot of luck to pass. but oh well at the most i'll jsut be forced to drop physics

2006-01-04T17:50:00.000+08:00

You scored as Anthropology. You should be an Anthropology major!

Anthropology

92%

Journalism

92%

Philosophy

83%

Psychology

83%

Engineering

75%

Sociology

75%

Theater

67%

Art

67%

Linguistics

58%

English

58%

Biology

58%

Mathematics

50%

Chemistry

33%

Dance

25%

What is your Perfect Major?
created with QuizFarm.com

......................

bahrgh i do hope this damn work ethic of mine never goes away.

2006-01-03T21:27:00.000+08:00

first day of school was not as bad as i expected it to be, but i supposed the first few days are always like that. like a sprint, you are all full of energy at the start but lose energy and determination as it goes on.

at least that's for me, i was never a long distance runner anyway (not that i'm a sprinter but thats not the point you morons)

my desire to do work has freaked me out, but then again i try to remember if i was like this at the start of last year.

~~OMGCHRISGETOUTOFMYHEADAAAAARGRRRHRGHRGHRHGHR~~

.....................

oh sigh i hope i can run a marathon this year, who will be my waterboys along the way?

2006-01-02T20:22:00.000+08:00

resolution for 2006: get over you(-know-who no thanks to julian and me gah <_<)

why do i feel that going back to school is so inherently pointless and useless? there's nothing to look forward to other than another meaningless string of tests and assignments and the shallowness of results and grades. and missing a discipleship gathering thanks to the ~~f***ed up~~ screwed up planning of the "leadership-development-program"

all for what?

there must be more than this.

2006-01-01T16:27:00.000+08:00

the yg gathering was fun, albeit less stony than last year.

i had this sudden flash that lasted for a few seconds, that the memory of the last countdown party was still as vivid as ever, and that between the last party and the one happening now, NOTHING HAS HAPPENED IN BETWEEN. oh gosh that sounds insane =/

stonestonestone, i think rayner's still as moronic as ever, so there.

..................

getting roughly 20mins of sleep culimated into extremely useless behavior on my part, could it be the 'chrisong effect'? but then again her blurness isnt caused by a lack of sleep, as illustrated in the fact that she couldnt come cause she needed her beauty sleep. teehee

...................

idiotic half life 2, oh well... i'll miss you 2005, maybe i'll blog more later when i'm less tired

2005-12-31T16:54:00.000+08:00

okay.. lastest last post on my blog for 2005 (heehee koped the survey from ian ^^)

.................

1. What did you do in 2005 that you’d never done before?
actually realised that scoring in exams has some significance

2. Did you keep your new years’ resolutions, and will you make more for next year?
erm... what resolutions?

3. Did anyone close to you give birth?
nope

4. Did anyone close to you die?
no.

5. What countries did you visit?
shanghai (oep), malaysia (church camp), sentosa (youth camp?!)

6. What would you like to have in 2006 that you lacked in 2005?
~~an electric guitar~~ stronger bonds with God and church people

7. What dates from 2005 will remain etched upon your memory, and why?
manymany, church camp, youth camp, my house, daryl's house, ian's house, results release, first time playing for church, chapel worship, getting screwed by mr tan, getting pissed off with chris, fab being an idiot, 'i kissed dating goodbye' ETCETCETCETC

8. What was your biggest achievement of the year?
To avert a disaster before it intensified

9. What was your biggest failure?
To fail to give up a stupid infatuation easily; let a considerable portion of the disaster happen anyway

10. Did you suffer illness or injury?
hardly except i have a huge cut on my foot just gotten today

11. What was the best thing you bought?
a book from life bookstore costing me $17.99 after student discount

12. Whose behaviour merited celebration?
Chriskng for being the sister i never had (awww!)

13. Whose behaviour made you appalled and depressed?
fabriz tong yi jen, ~~ian lim wei~~

14. Where did most of your money go?
Bob the bass

15. What did you get really, really, really excited about?
uhh... the prospect of rayner being kicked out of yg5?

16. What song will always remind you of 2005?
With Every Breath - Jars of Clay and Sixpence none the richer (or something like that)

17. Compared to this time last year, are you:
a) happier or sadder? i was happier than last year and at the same time sadder so it kinda even's out
b) thinner or fatter? what is the result of snacking all day?
c) richer or poorer? i obtained huge amounts of money but spent it all so i dont know

18. What do you wish you’d done more of?
yg outings!

19. What do you wish you’d done less of?
~~being an idiot to chrisong~~ swearing

20. ~~How will you be spending Christmas?~~ no need for this

21. What was your favorite month of 2005?
november

22. Did you fall in love in 2005?
hm. how would i know? not sure if it even was true love.

23. How many one-night stands?
o.O none

24. What was your favourite TV programme?
Lost.

25. Do you hate anyone now that you didn’t hate this time last year?
gosh where to begin....

26. What was the best book you read?
I Kissed Dating Goodbye - Joshua Harris (:

27. What was your greatest musical discovery?
~~rammstein~~ dunno...various artists who arranged the songs that i like nicely

28. What did you want and get?
Bob the Bass

29. What did you want and not get?
~~christineongweiying~~ the destruction of the school system oh woe..

30. What was your favorite film of this year?
none in particular...

31. What did you do on your birthday, and how old were you?
i studied for the damn exams -.-

32. What one thing would have made your year immeasurably more satisfying?
A close relationship with God

33. How would you describe your personal fashion concept in 2005?
'argh i'm not wearing anything but black, dark blue and occasionally red'

34. What kept you sane?
people whom i can confide in

35. Which celebrity/public figure did you fancy the most?
huh... do i know any? (hehe i just found out that tony blair was the prime minister of great britain yesterday)

36. What political issue stirred you the most?
huh? what's going on eh?

37. Who did you miss?
Loo Shek Kien (for obvious reasons)

38. Who was the best new person you met?
Daryl i guess

39. Tell us a valuable life lesson you learned in 2005.
Angst is fun/annoying/irritating/makes-people-think-you-are-poser/trytoactcool

40. Quote a song lyric that sums up your year.
'God will make a way where there seems to be no way'

........................

happy 2006 in advance everyone

2005-12-30T19:47:00.000+08:00

people that do not have what i want to buy in stock exist only to annoy me andmake me waste time and energy.

fancy not having a game you want in stock, in the whole damn funan center, sigh oh well i shall live without it then

.................

since i will have no time to blog tomorrow as i will be too busy having fun(?) at ian ng's ~~house~~ mansion, i should do my reflections on the year.

what an eventful year, the graph of ups and downs is more violent than ever, mostly on the downsides.

things i did:
-come to senses about what it means to be a christian (i sense the criticism of many)
-crap up school and fail everything (again)
-joined music team
-played for chapel with the out-of-tune guitar with no thanks to a certain mugger who has no life
-ranted about alot of people
-hated alot of people
-'loved' someone
-found out that it wasnt right
-struggled with letting go till now
-backstabbed and deceived by someone whom i thought was my friend
-learnt abit more about myself and my character
-~~bought christine~~ (oh wait that was last year)
-bought bob
-made a few more friends
-drifted apart from a few
-bonded better with my yg
-youth camp with a stupid note
-church camp with a stupid clique
-christmas with a mime and fawning aunties

gosh i cant remember anymore, but looking back i am proud to say that school wasnt everything to me, unlike some people who let it dictate how they live. (TIM AND KAIJUN ARE YOU READING THIS?) i guess its good to break free of this stupid system, which i forsee i will wish i was back in it when i break out of it

oh sigh how screwed up the world is.

..............

i apologise for the less-than-happy mood for this blog post as i am worn out and tired and pissed off.

2005-12-26T15:41:00.000+08:00

oh okay i think i will blog.

chrstmas day yesterday was quite fun, mime was good with psychotic aunties screaming praises, paul and elaine's full-of-crapness..

~~omgiamsosadchrisongdidntgivemeanythingbutthenagainshedidntgivechrisknganythingsoishouldntexpect anything~~

i get a little toy guitar thingy with 4 strings, all the same thickness,

paul: you can put a speaker inside, then plug in mp3 player, then can pretend to play!
me: doh all 4 strings are the same thickness
elaine: good wad, then you can play a monotone, but 4 times the loudness!
me: o.O

dohh..

.................

then there was the psuedo-gathering at my house in my lovely new room, where alot of my stuff was abused T.T. poor sally christine and bob and my comp.... oh well at least you people had fun.

..................

seeing ling off wasnt really impactful.. but then again i'm the type of person who only realises the impact much later so oh well..

PEOPLE CRASHING THE RESIDENCE OF IAN NG WEIZHE BE DISAPPOINTED, BY THE TIME YOU REACH YOU MIGHT JUST BE TOO EXHAUSTED TO CRASH IT!!!

reason? we are walking from acs to ian's richass house in cluny park with the pool cum septic tank. how incredibly fun!

however dean made the extremely horrible suggestion of making me and rayner the screwtard prayer partners. oh well too bad i cant slap him in a public place -.-

..............

holidays ending, i realise the only thing that makes me not feel like going back to school is the prospect of handing in holiday homework.

2005-12-24T22:05:00.000+08:00

as i sat in parkway parade watching people go by, it brought back memories...

as i watched my primary 5 cousin open his presents are see the childish glee in his eyes...

as i did all these things, i thought of how DUMB it would be to use these simple issues and force yourself to think of it philosophically and make it sound like some cheesy reflection done for the sake of doing it. just like those you do after some stupid school orientation or camp that had no impact at all.

and blog about them in this 'philosophical' way when there's nothing philosophical about them anyway. sure you might say 'oho but it shows that i think deeply about mundane things! ahaha! you are WRONG'. then i could be a bitch and say 'oh then if i go into a female toilet deliberately means that i think deeply too! because apparently forcing yourself to do stuff without it being natural means you are a DEEP THINKER!'

ahaha so therefore you are WRONG! (:

.............

hmm i ~~think~~ know i was being unneccesarily full of crap and 'rantish', but its all in good fun teehee.

i think i also realised that ranting is easy, comes naturally, and fills up tonnes of blog space without needing to think about what to write! woohoo!

...............

imagine the time is 12:01, MERRY CHRISTMAS!!!

2005-12-21T16:34:00.000+08:00

christmas shopping is fun/tiring/frustrating/emptying

40++ dollars gone in a single day! wow thats probable more than i have ever spent in one day on.... not so expensive stuff (haha that ~~sounds~~ is useless innit (: )

people i bought presents for

-chrisong
-chriskng
-ian
-ian
-daryl

..................

i think something not being in stock is probably the stupidest reason for not being able to buy something you want.

you have the money, you went all the way there, you argued with your mom over not informing her when you left the house, you fiddled with your useless zen to make sure the sound came out correctly for 20 minutes, you walk 5 metres from the bus stop to the building in the SCORCHING SUN, you go to the wrong part of the store, ask the assistant and look like a fool.

AND THEY DONT FREAKING HAVE THE DARN BOOK

&%(#(%(#@&%(&#(&%(#&@(%&@#(&%(&#@(%&(@#&%(@&#

.....................

then there was display of the useless shop assistant:

i ask 'excuse me do you have *whatever book*'

*immediately* 'its not in stock, ~~piss off~~ come back in a week'

-walks to sweelee to pick picks for people- (pun NOT intended) then it dawns on me that the assistant just couldn't give a damn and thus ought to be shot.

so i go back and ask ANOTHER assistant

"the stock is in, but we havent started opening the boxes yet, i'll take your name, if we find the book we'll give you a call"

"how soon?"

"i dont know, maybe a few days"

*SIGH*

gosh i didnt know opening boxes took so long, wonder what the only word to describe this situation is (hinthint: it starts with U, has 7 letters, and is what chrisong is the epitome of)

.....................

ah well i think i might need to buy more presents, sigh.

here's kenny's

2005-12-19T17:56:00.000+08:00

YOU GET ONE WISH OF ANYTHING, WHAT WOULD YOU ASK FOR?
To understand God better/be closer to God

WISH FOR 6 MORE WISHES.
1. financial literacy/money.
2. freedom
3. people around me to be happy
4. ability to play the guitar properly
5. maturity
6. ~~less mats in the world~~ 6 more wishes.

WHAT ANIMAL WOULD YOU BE?
eagle

SOMETHING YOU WANT TO DO IN YOUR LIFE:
help people

ONE SONG YOU COULD LISTEN TO OVER AND OVER AGAIN:
(seriously can't think of anything here)

COKE OR PEPSI?
Coke (lime)

SOMETHING YOU CURRENTLY DESIRE:
better guitar skills

ONE GOOD DEED YOU¡¯VE DONE LATELY:
donated to charity

A FUNNY MOMENT IN YOUR LIFE:
any moment spent with my brother

5 ppl to do:
daryl, kaijun, arjun, chriskng, LKY

here you go ian...

2005-12-19T17:15:00.000+08:00

IF YOU’VE BEEN SINGLED OUT: Rules: Copy and paste the questions to your site and answer them, then pick five people whom you wish to be Singled Out. Don’t forget to tell them they’ve been Singled Out

YOU GET ONE WISH OF ANYTHING, WHAT WOULD YOU ASK FOR?
To be really passionate about God since its the only thing in life i see worth living for.

WISH FOR 6 MORE WISHES.
1. money. (duh)
2. to be able to know exactly where every note on the fret board is
3. that rayner will be kicked out of lwmc, or yg5 at the very least and swapped for valentia
4. spend a holiday with yg5 minus rayner for as long as i please
5. that EoS will evaporate on the 31st of December.
6. *ahem* what do you think?

WHAT ANIMAL WOULD YOU BE?
An orca, top of the food chain, carefree life, only fear is of man

SOMETHING YOU WANT TO DO IN YOUR LIFE:
convince myself that the world isnt as screwed up as it is.

ONE SONG YOU COULD LISTEN TO OVER AND OVER AGAIN:
In Christ Alone

COKE OR PEPSI?
Coke.

SOMETHING YOU CURRENTLY DESIRE:
(people dont count right) black fender stratocaster which i will call BANE

ONE GOOD DEED YOU’VE DONE LATELY:
erm... taught chrisong how to palm-mute? o.O

A FUNNY MOMENT IN YOUR LIFE:
various polar-bear incidents. eg. rayner the mc: polar bears wake up, that means you eric. -.-"

5 ppl to do:
~~chriskng~~, ~~daryl~~, ~~kenny (i suppose i'll extract his reply and post it for him)~~, kaijun, julian (how interesting)

2005-12-18T21:30:00.000+08:00

gosh what an eventful day. tired, worn out, but content i suppose.

slept at 1:30, woke up at 7. this would be due to the corrupting influences of chris and ian that lured me to come for mime.

but of course they didnt tell me that i was to participate, sneaksy...

so oh well i'll have to wear ALL BLACK (woohoo) next sunday and ahem mime to the song 'people need the Lord'. its actually quite fun btw.

................

lunch with chris and vally was...quite interesting, what with playing with the curry and all. but at least i got to know vally better, how nice awww.

i am content with how things turned out at michael's house.

-becky didnt come (hmm)
-chrisong did however (hmm hmm)
-the dota people stuck in their group
-we got to jam, as i hoped we would

i agree with mike that hillsongs ARE difficult to play. how many times have we tried singing 'everyday' for sunday worship and it turning out to be a failure? only paul managed to pull it off properly oh well

....................

now i finally believe that ~~not doing anything~~ leaving things into God's hands and letting him make a way for you is the very best thing to do when you face a problem.

2005-12-15T19:05:00.000+08:00

hmm. why am i always so stony when outdoors? could it be that isolating myself in my own little world (with christine and bob and sally [yes i realised that the name is perfect -.-]) makes me uncomfortable around other people?

eek, not very comforting.

...............

oh well, cip at bethany was extra labour i guess. some of the volunteers looked remarkably irritable, and as a result the old people looked irritable too. or vice versa.

not really impactful on the whole, but meaningful

i would like to say that our outing was great until a certain ~~retard~~ troll decided to crash it due to the other guy making the dumass mistake of giving away our location. but it wasnt that great, i mean like.. stoning around in mac's and ian even forgot to tell the purple passion joke.

then of course chris and becky decided to stick together (both literally and figuratively) and dao everyone ): ah well... at least ian found his pencil case.

.....................

its not my fault if certain stupid people (fine, just rayner) do not understand the sentimental value of a pick.

yes a PICK, a guitar pick for the knowledge deprived (like me, heh)

hmm maybe its the countless occasions you used it, the special events you used it for, worship on sunday, people that used it? your pick becomes your FRIEND and BUDDY and you can t do without it. and once its LOST, you feel extremely grieved

but of course rayner cannot be considered a guitarist so he has no right to say anything about it.

................

chris is a moron i barred talking to her until rayner showed up and my hate was magnetically attracted to the stinking bulk of the troll. and of course she's still lying to me about what she bought from the toy store.

phooey

2005-12-13T23:23:00.000+08:00

sheesh dave is so deliberately and blatantly irritating that its not even irritating anymore, thats a good thing btw. oh no i was so lethargic today whats wrong with me, daryl calls it the 'chrisong effect'

o.O

.....................

anyway been wanting to post about the strip of paper thing that we did on sunday but i forgot, simple and useless as that. here it is:

December 2004
Rejoice: Christmas (and the precious maoam and card received)

January 2005
Rejoice: OEP

February 2005
Rejoice: Discipleship retreat (or was it in jan?)

April 2005
Rejoice: Joined the ~~useless~~ LW music team

May 2005
Rejoice: the book
Un-rejoice: the book

June 2005
Rejoice: Youth Camp
Un-rejoice: Youth Camp

July 2005
Rejoice: First time playing for church (youth day on the 2nd wahaha)

September 2005
Rejoice: Home Alone

October 2005
Un-rejoice: exam results

December 2005
Rejoice: Church Camp
Un-rejoice: Church Camp

................

ah well..

2005-12-12T17:00:00.000+08:00

sigh how to address this issue? on one hand i am getting really tired of all your bitching and feel like ranting about it. but on the other hand i know it'll do no good and i want to preserve the few slivers of our friendship.

only if you do too, i assume.

i realise that when i get exasperated beyond tolerance its because of the way you do it. the remarks you make always have a certain truth behind them, and it hurts like hell. i hate it whenever you do these, because it just gives me the impression that behind all your 'you're okay lah's you just hate me to the damn core.

and it hurts like hell.

i dont know whether you even care how i feel, since you have shown little sensitivity the last time i wrote an 'emotional' post like this. i get the impression that you harbour lots and lots of negative feelings towards me, then drop your disapproval on me without any warning. i harbour negative feelings too, but i keep them quiet, and hope that they will go away sooner or later.

it's been working.

what to say now? i dont know, but i care, and whether you do or not is up to you... if i sounded bitchy or whatever you might want to overlook it because this post was meant for me to sound pathetic and un-angry. maybe it didnt work.

2005-12-11T00:37:00.000+08:00

sigh spent most of today, or rather yesterday stoning around the house doing nothing. why? because there was nowhere in the house for me to go, and i wasnt allowe dto go out anyway.

lets look through the thought process (yes i can actually think you asses -.-)

-cannot play games, cause they are on the comp
-find something else to do- play HER which i am still unable to name ~~cause i wont accept anything other than christine~~. but guess what? the chords for today's worship are on the comp! sheesh
-find something ELSE to do. really have nothing better to do, feels like doing EoS. BUT GUESS WHAT?! ITS ON THE COMP TOO. OMG AGRKHGSKFKSAGFKGASKGRKHASKRH PISSSYSYSYYSYSY

thus i am able to conclude that there is nothing to do in the house other than the computer.

this is proven by the fact that after catching up on lost tv episodes due to church camp, one will be forced to watch stupid dvds to wheedle away the time before the renovaters ~~PISS OFF~~ go away. an example of one such stupid dvd will be the tremendously boring and gay show called alexander.

THEY SHOW HIM KISSING ANOTHER GUY AND SCREWING AROUND AND BEING A LUNATIC AND THEY SAY HES GREAT?! AAAH badbadbad. oh well.

................

reflection #4:

this is probably the last one unless i think of something else realy important. by now i'm quite sure that there are morons and backstabbers and whisperers-behind-your-back badmouthing me over not saying anything about the religious aspect of the church camp and saying everything else first.

well the truth is that it didnt really impact me much, its always touching to hear a testimony on how someone with a life even more screwed up than mine overcomes the odds with the help of God and become a servant of Him. but that was it, the trac president's sermons were rather confusing and hard to follow due to useless powerpoint management.

to be frank, i think the thing that impacted me most spiritually was the yg5 meeting we had. ~~when rayner was an ass and ran off at the first possible moment he should go and die~~. its always good to hear the group discuss about how we want to bond and all, cause it give me the impression that these people actually BOTHER about becoming closer to each other.

however impressions arent always accurate but i shall try ~~to be optimistic~~ not to be pessimistic and hope that our yg will bond.

.....................

playing today, hope my new strings and she-who-has-not-been-named will serve me and ultimately God well.

2005-12-09T19:32:00.000+08:00

bah what else is there to reflect on except that

reflection #3

church camp creates a timeless zone for us to escape from our crappy lives, even more so that your regular holiday. theres the sinking feeling when you know that youre going back to singapore

sigh.

2005-12-08T23:18:00.000+08:00

i will never, never miss another music practice ever again.

reflection #2

i was quite disappointed that i did not manage to achieve this particular goal with you. i set out on the camp with the goal to rebuild our friendship in mind. but whenever i see you you are always in that clique, unapproachable, as if you had a shield to 'protect' you.

its getting increasingly hard and frustrating to let go of you. you confuse me.

argh.

2005-12-08T11:01:00.000+08:00

random-thought-about-church-camp #1

polar bear.

despite how easy it is to get a large group of people to play this game, its a very intellectual game as it requires one to know how to manipulate human nature and theirs thoughts.

screaming at people to kill them while they are the polar bear is NOT reverse psychology and doesnt work at all.

its better to have a small group of people who know how to play than to have a large group of people who dont.

~~rayner can screw the heck off~~

oh well ian is really good at it despite how full of crap he is during 'sleeping time'. but its all part of the strategy no?

2005-12-07T21:31:00.000+08:00

i think i will blog about church camp when i have collected my thoughts and reflected properly. for now my mind is a mess of nonsense and rubbish thanks to excessive amounts of lost sleep.

2005-12-03T10:35:00.000+08:00

going to chriskng's house was insane and a shocking display of uselessness. (and also a great example of why women dont become military commanders). but of course it was all fun and enjoyous.

..............

you realise that it isnt really what facilities the house or place of gathering can offer, but the people that you interact with. you can have the most boring house in the world (like mine), but if you invite oh say yg5 ~~minus rayner~~ . alot of laughter and speechlessness would result from:

-dean's uselessness
-ling siew's uselessness
-kenny's uselessness
-chriskng's uselessness
-my uselessness
-ian's pointlessness
-andrew's full-of-crapness
-hannah's autism?
-allison's antics
-mervyn's happiness
-alastair's randomness
-daryl's reaction to all of the above

and last but not least, chrisong and becky. (nuff said)

~~rayner's stupidity and obtuseness and trollishness~~

.................

church camp tomorrow, hopefully i'll get to observe more of the above, and good luck kenny on both being able to join at the last minute, and also getting a troll (and his club) for a roommate.

2005-12-01T12:35:00.000+08:00

today marks the first day of december.

2005 is already coming to a close, too damn quickly.

holiday life has been quite unfulfilling.

2005-11-27T22:10:00.000+08:00

"sEanY~: amen to marcus. occultic stuff isnt exactly very healthy for christian life.

sEanY~: pokemon is actually occultic cos it's "monsters" so i was banned from it as well. but wdv i dun care -.-"

damn why does that sound so much like kaijun saying that dota is stupid then still playing it? no offense of course ~~to kaijun~~

2005-11-26T20:12:00.000+08:00

cool i just realised that to cross stuff out the '< / s>' must be put behind the '<>' -.-"

(the blank space between the <>s is to be filled with an S. if you concentrate hard enough you'll be able to make it appear inside! give it a try)

2005-11-26T20:05:00.000+08:00

today was the first day of the pseudo-renovation of my house.

a wall was built in the second story family room for my new room. (hopefully more space to jump around ~~and a drumset~~ ) and the best part is.... SOUND PROOF WALLS!!! now it wont matter that my room is even closer to the monstrosity downstairs. i'll be SAFE AND SOUND (haha bad pun)

(its black, has loads of ivory, weighs a tonne, and makes awful noise. in case you pple were wondering what the 'monstrosity' was)

.....................

but of course before building the partition the family room had to be cleared out, quite an emotional experience... what with clearing out old toys and games, brought back memories of good times had together with my siblings. my car collection, my bunch of trucks, the bucket of duplo blocks that we used to make castles out of.

the little plastic insects gotten from zoo camp in p4 that we used to play kuti kuti ^^"

argh, really too good to throw away

.....................

church camp in one week's time, can hardly wait

2005-11-25T23:06:00.000+08:00

okay sorry to whoever i may have offended as a result of my angst outburst earlier on today.

wanna know the reason..? its really dumb. cause i just came back from harry potter then my parents come back home and say that they wanna go out for dinner. while i was in the shower.

so i was like 'DOH i didnt come home to shower just so that i could go out again!'. *AGITATEDDD* anyway afterwards i had to eat crappy popiah for dinner instead of.. fish & co? (popiah is nice but the dunman food court one is disgusting)

SIGH

2005-11-25T18:20:00.000+08:00

zzz dont ever talk to me about harry potter for the rest of the....month? (o.o)

thanks to stupid kenny and company (or j.low and company wdv) i was forced to watch the damn movie two times within what... 6 hours?

okay so me and julian come out of the theatre at 2, having just finished the 11:15 show. then who do we see? mr kenny and mr arjun and... shouren (j.low went to buy tickets)

then we proceed to be hustled into buying tickets for the 2:30 show. bugger, but oh well at least i only paid for one of the movies cause julian's mom paid for us for the first one. o_O

(i broke my lovely $50 note in exchange for 3 plastic $10 notes and 2 normal 100% cotton ones =/)

.........................

yay shallow post! now sue me for being un-intellectual

2005-11-24T21:33:00.000+08:00

not seeing people regularly makes you think about them, sometimes in a negative sense. you use whatever fragments of interaction with them you have during the holidays, root out negative things, then blow it up into an all out rant and be all pissed and angsty about them.

or maybe its just me.

......................

as a result of not having anymore stupid book series to read anymore. (e.g : harry potter, alex rider, one hundred stupidest things ever done) i have decided to read h2g2 again! whoopee wowee.

but of course tonnes of general knowledge is needed to properly understand and appreciate it properly... :(

"if ignorance was bliss eric would have an orgasm"

HAHAHA.

2005-11-24T02:30:00.001+08:00

hmm okay surprisingly the address 'www.blogger.com/home' is still on my 5 day history.

(OH WOW LOOK AT THE TIME AHAHAHAHHAHAHAHAHHAHAH -.-)

.......................

damn i wish i still had somemore work. days of slacking as a result of being released from work last VERY short. then you wish you had work again

doh stupid human nature.

but of course theres HOMEwork to be done. Essay on Science = Eye of Skadi = Eating on Slack = CRAP.

chinese? wads that

........................

today (or yesterday [HAHA LOOK AT THE TIME AHAHAHA]) i realised that my feet are accustomed to being CUSHIONED. argh thats bad. i am suffering without the carpet and the pillow footrest for my computer

feels so empty and makes me agitated >:(

or maybe its the time HAHA LOOK AT THE TIME AHAHAHA

..........................

ah well... willy wonka isnt THAT bad chris =/

-edit-

mymy how messed up the post looks, but oh well i'll leave it since i cant be bothered to type it all out again, and also so that certain people who brag about their sleeping/awake time will be spurred to achieve greater heights (read: 'later' hours)

-end edit-

2005-11-19T19:50:00.000+08:00

while utilising my lovely new christmas tree guitar stand with all three types of guitar i think i might have just unlocked the reason behind the size of most bassists (except the rammstein bloke)

playing the bass is DAMN TIRING.

yeah just thought you might like to know. hee.

2005-11-18T20:55:00.000+08:00

task: lose your salary for two weeks and half of your savings for the year within five hours (total: $440)

procedure:

-give the money to your dad so that he can bank it in
-go to bras basah complex
-find the shop called 'swee lee' on the third floor
-seek out a certain Ibanez bass jumpstart kit
-request to have a look at it (widen your eyes at the staff's name 'sultan')
-grimace at the horrible maroon colour of the instrument (i want black. duh.)
-check for the availability of the marvellous BLACK COLOUR
-sigh when they say the dont have it
-proceed to try out the bass
-deem yourself satisfied
-check the price ($462 after 20% discount from $550)
-be informed by the staff that the black will come in tomorrow, thus we shall collect it tomorrow!
-be amused at your dad pleading for a further discount
-marvel when mr. sultan relents and brings it down to $440

- PAY

THE ENDDDDD TADAA

.............

after that we went to some dodgy chinese cd shop where my mum took a long time to select a bunch of classical vcds in which a chinese piano player (who looks like he'd been stuffed into a trash compactor judging by his hunchedness) well... played horrible agitating boring music

here is when ian becomes indignant. oh well too bad.

as a result of boredom i look around the shop and found an eyebrow raising vcd series entitled 'sex in animals'. on the cover shows hyenas and horses in the act of corpulation.

maybe its meant for animal lovers like me o.O or for people with REALLY WEIRD FETISHES

..............

time to slack right now.

2005-11-16T22:32:00.000+08:00

hmm here's what my mum thinks of me:

-arrogant
-egoistic
-selfish
-unreliable
-indifferent
-'thinks-he's-so-smart'

i concede selfish and indifferent. but i'm sure people that KNOW me will disagree that i am EGOISTIC?! (if you dont you ought to be shot along with my mom btw)

hello? my dear ignorant mum, i happen to be ERIC LEE JUN REN, the person with no self-esteem, much less any pride, the word 'ego' exists in his dictionary only to identify it in people and rant about them.

no pride that is unfounded anyway, but then again i suck at what i'm good at.

..............

of course this goes to show how 'well' my mum knows me. maybe one day she will learn that yelling at me without explanation will get nowhere. maybe one day she will learn not to slam the door when i try to explain

maybe one day she will WAKE THE BLOODY HELL UP.

...............

sigh.

2005-11-15T18:40:00.000+08:00

ah the company of mr azmi today was a refreshing break from the mundane life that usually results once the post-exam/holiday-starting euphoria is over.

...........

hmm one should try to trust mr azmi's sense of direction more, despite the many panic inducing comments he makes. example: "should i turn right or left? i think i shall turn right because it sounds nicer".

or something like that

...........

then the issue of my negativity came up. argh am i really THAT negative that i really dont say anything positive at all? oh no thats bad...

i guess people ~~will~~ might take me more seriously if i was more balanced and not be ~~tim-like~~ TOO NICE or over critical.

ah maybe thats why people dont give a crap what i say, obviously if someone never said anything good about anything ever then he/she isnt exactly the most credible person around.

at least thats what i think =/ ~~(sean: "eric gets sucked into the mirror")~~

............

i really need to find something more constructive to do with my time

"Love?"

2005-11-14T18:40:00.000+08:00

sth i found off dotaportal, quite interesting:

What is love? When we claim that it's love that we have for someone,
are we right? Something to think about...

Do you love someone because you've been kissed?
It's not love, it's inferiority complex.

Are your palms sweaty, is your heart racing and is your voice caught
within your chest?
It isn't love, it's like.

You can't keep your eyes off of them, am I right?
It isn't love, it's lust.

Do you love someone because you can't live without their touch?
It's not love, it's lust.

Are you proud and eager to show them off?
It isn't love, it's luck.

Do you want them because you know they're there?
It isn't love, it's loneliness.

Do you stay for their confessions of love, because you don't want to
hurt them?
It isn't love, it's pity.

Do you belong to them because their sight makes your heart skip a beat?
It isn't love, it's infatuation.

Do you think he or she is really gorgeous?
It's not love, it's infatuation.

Do you pardon their faults because you care about them?
It isn't love, it's friendship.

Do you share everything with them?
It's not love, it's friendship.

Do you tell them that they are the only one you think of?
It's not love, it's a lie.

Are you willing to give all of your favourite things for their sake?
It isn't love, it's charity.

Would you sacrifice your own life for them?
It's not love, it's heroism.

If you love someone because you think that you shouldn't leave him
because others think that you shouldn't ...
It's not love, it's compromise.

Do you know you love them because you simply cannot live without them?
It's not love, it's dependency.

Does your heart ache and break, do you cry for their pain, even when
they're strong?
Then it's love.

Do their eyes see your true heart, and touch your soul so deeply it hurts?
Then it's love.

Would you allow them to leave you, not because they want to but
because they have to?
Then it's love.

Could you live without them, content with knowing that they are happy?
Then it's love.

oh well.. guess its sth to think about for those who can be bothered to.

First Post

2005-11-14T17:42:00.000+08:00

hmm okay new blog, wowwee.

guess maybe i decided to change it because

1. the previous title didnt make sense anymore (after daryl and ian's smses today i realised that i no longer cared ^^)

2. i was walking back from the bus-stop then had the sudden idea of new address

3. been thinking about changing the address for a long time anyway

4. ~~i might actually be able to make people THINK,~~ (oh well if i can write a thousand word long post and not have any impact i dont see how this can work)

5. scared of being called a hypocrite in relation to blogskin (no i couldnt be bothered to change it)

6. i wanted cbox and couldnt be bothered to change it (again)

okay i am running out of ideas now, maybe i'll think of some again later

p.s. daryl and ian, dont ever call me a troll again.