sigh spent most of today, or rather yesterday stoning around the house doing nothing. why? because there was nowhere in the house for me to go, and i wasnt allowe dto go out anyway.

lets look through the thought process (yes i can actually think you asses -.-)

-cannot play games, cause they are on the comp
-find something else to do- play HER which i am still unable to name cause i wont accept anything other than christine. but guess what? the chords for today's worship are on the comp! sheesh
-find something ELSE to do. really have nothing better to do, feels like doing EoS. BUT GUESS WHAT?! ITS ON THE COMP TOO. OMG AGRKHGSKFKSAGFKGASKGRKHASKRH PISSSYSYSYYSYSY

thus i am able to conclude that there is nothing to do in the house other than the computer.

this is proven by the fact that after catching up on lost tv episodes due to church camp, one will be forced to watch stupid dvds to wheedle away the time before the renovaters PISS OFF go away. an example of one such stupid dvd will be the tremendously boring and gay show called alexander.

THEY SHOW HIM KISSING ANOTHER GUY AND SCREWING AROUND AND BEING A LUNATIC AND THEY SAY HES GREAT?! AAAH badbadbad. oh well.

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reflection #4:

this is probably the last one unless i think of something else realy important. by now i'm quite sure that there are morons and backstabbers and whisperers-behind-your-back badmouthing me over not saying anything about the religious aspect of the church camp and saying everything else first.

well the truth is that it didnt really impact me much, its always touching to hear a testimony on how someone with a life even more screwed up than mine overcomes the odds with the help of God and become a servant of Him. but that was it, the trac president's sermons were rather confusing and hard to follow due to useless powerpoint management.

to be frank, i think the thing that impacted me most spiritually was the yg5 meeting we had. when rayner was an ass and ran off at the first possible moment he should go and die. its always good to hear the group discuss about how we want to bond and all, cause it give me the impression that these people actually BOTHER about becoming closer to each other.

however impressions arent always accurate but i shall try to be optimistic not to be pessimistic and hope that our yg will bond.

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playing today, hope my new strings and she-who-has-not-been-named will serve me and ultimately God well.