gah on the long ride home after a fruitful music practice i realised that i am emotionally drained..

a very few issues, some sworn to secrecy, some just plain confusing.

chrisong is migrating to australia this march along with the rest of her family as her mom hsa found a good job there and ib will be cheaper for chris since singapore's, or rather acs(i)'s one is too expensive

the confusing bit is that i see this as more of a blessing than as a cause to grieve and be depressed over.

(does this mean i'm over her?)

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i have no doubt that this is God's work, prayer power? i think i've been praying for all the wrong things.

stupid things like 'oho please let us be friends again'. i think i forgot to add the back part of 'so that i have a better chance'.

about a week before the ldp, realisation just hit me that i was praying for the wrong thing, seeing it from a different perspective.

deluded.

hence i started praying for myself to let go, to rid myself of all distractions that link to chris. God stepped in and let her migrate, out of singapore, out of my life.

thank you Lord.