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Si... Silicon You scored 35 Mass, 37 Electronegativity, 31 Metal, and 10 Radioactivity!

Interesting. Take a bunch of really common person-elements and throw them together to get something truely exceptional... that's you. You are probably someone that gave up on trying to understand society at large a long time ago. You don't fear it, but you don't try to be one with it either. You are more or less unperturbed by things... if a problem comes up you might deal with it, or you might avoid it... whatever. You don't take kindly to people pushing you around, and you don't really push anyone else around. You're probably the only one that can tame oxygen simply because you don't understand it's raging neediness, but that doesn't mean that you'll really enjoy having a tame oxygen hanging around all that much either. You can probably get along with people like yourself really well, but you aren't your own soulmate... if only they could make entire colonies of people like you you'd be stoked. Just like you don't understand society, society doesn't understand you... and yes that is my excuse for not knowing how to describe you better.

My test tracked 4 variables How you compared to other people your age and gender: You scored higher than 40% on Mass You scored higher than 68% on Electroneg You scored higher than 8% on Metal You scored higher than 41% on Radioactivity

Link: The Which Chemical Element Am I Test written by effataigus on OkCupid Free Online Dating, home of the 32-Type Dating Test

"Look at this photograph
Everytime I do it makes me laugh
How did our eyes get so red
And what the hell is on Joey's head

And this is where I grew up
I think the present owner fixed it up
I never knew we'd ever went without
The second floor is hard for sneaking out

And this is where I went to school
Most of the time had better things to do
Criminal record says I broke in twice
I must have done it half a dozen times

I wonder if It's too late
Should i go back and try to graduate
Life's better now then it was back then
If I was them I wouldn't let me in

Oh oh oh
Oh god I

Every memory of looking out the back door
I had the photo album spread out on my bedroom floor
It's hard to say it, time to say it
Goodbye, goodbye

Every memory of walking out the front door
I found the photo of the friend that I was looking for
It's hard to say it, time to say it
Goodbye, goodbye

We used to listen to the radio
And sing along with every song we know
We said someday we'd find out how it feels
To sing to more than just the steering wheel

Kim's the first girl I kissed
I was so nervous that I nearly missed
She's had a couple of kids since then
I haven't seen her since god knows when

Oh oh oh
Oh god I

Every memory of looking out the back door
I had the photo album spread out on my bedroom floor
It's hard to say it, time to say it
Goodbye, goodbye

Every memory of walking out the front door
I found the photo of the friend that I was looking for
It's hard to say it, time to say it
Goodbye, goodbye

I miss that town
I miss the faces
You can't erase
You can't replace it
I miss it now
I can't believe it

So hard to stay
Too hard to leave it

If I could I relive those days
I know the one thing that would never change

Every memory of looking out the back door
I had the photo album spread out on my bedroom floor
It's hard to say it, time to say it
Goodbye, goodbye

Every memory of walking out the front door
I found the photo of the friend that I was looking for
It's hard to say it, time to say it
Goodbye, goodbye

Look at this photograph
Everytime I do it makes me laugh
Everytime I do it makes me"

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10 Things i will miss about you:

1. Going to church every sunday and wondering if you would show up
2. Waiting and watching to see if you would turn up for yg outings
3. Thinking whether i should call you to ask why you don't come for yg sometimes
4. Your antics with Becky
5. The jokes you made which were funny only because of the way you told them
6. Calling you knowing that you probably won't pick up your handphone
7. Hoping that whoever picks up the home phone doesn't ask who i am
8. Wondering if i would ever bump into you when i go out
9. Talking to you only to be interrupted within ten seconds by external factors
10. Just having you around


I guess this shows that my involvement in your life is very limited, but the opposite does not apply and I miss you terribly. Hope I can be around next december where you are allegedly supposed to be returning.

Hmm it feels good not to be watching ndp at all. (Last year I glanced at the screen bah.) However, I shan't go into stuff like a pseudo-rant about Singapore in order to not make myself paranoid to ian's post (again).

So what's there to say now?

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Staying in boarding school for ndp holiday, incidentally also feels pretty good. For a number of reasons of course.

Firstly, when I'm in boarding school at least I know that I can spend my time doing something constructive such as overdue chinese homework. When I am at home there's my bed, my dad's computer (with reliable internet and msn), and the ever noisy piano to distract me.

Secondly, when I'm in boarding school I don't have to feel as if I'm living in someone else's house. As in, I can feel that my room belongs to me and therefore is mine. When I'm at home I feel like I'm living in my dad's room in my dad's house cause he was the one that paid for the renovation. But then again I'm living in the school's room and off my dad's sponsoring, so I don't know what I am talking about.

Thirdly, i feel that my privacy is actually respected in boarding school. This is because people actually knock before entering the room; as opposed to just barging in and immediately trying to glance at my computer screen while saying that they just want to see me. Gosh i never knew that knocking before entering was a common practice! Nah just kidding, but at least not in my dad's house it isnt.

But oh well i don't suppose you (if any) came here just to read my whining, as some people like to put it.

Today was a good day on the whole I guess. Service was good, with Paul providing intentional/unintentional comic relief when appropriate of course.

(Sigh why do I always find myself at a loss for words when I want to talk to you?)

Oh dear then you and your family were called up during prayers to pray for you.

After service was the most emotional time I’ve had for awhile thanks to you, though that will probably be replaced this Saturday.

I don't know, I’m afraid I won't be able to cry when you go. I am always slow in realising just how emotional some things are, or maybe I’m gotten over it? Nah... Don’t think so.

I want to hug you again, but this time tries to hug me back ok?

I want to see you again before Saturday, just to talk and spend time with you before you go off. But of course I more than understand how busy you must be, as usual. Thank goodness this week has basically nothing, because I won't be able to concentrate when everything seems to remind me of you and sadness. Example? Watching 'I not stupid 2' and remembering how you said you cried when watching it.

Sigh? I’ll try to call you, bye.