i decline to blog much these days for the fear that i might be giving scandalous people ammunition. so there, you should know who you are.

i'm sick of chrisong being mentioned and talked about by people who know ZILCH about what the hell is going on.

just so you know.

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i despise people who:

1. are trolls.
2. are stupid.
3. are shallow.
4. are obsessed over soccer.
5. are hypocritical.
6. mindlessly abide to rules without thinking.
7. are not upright. (read: slandering behind backs)
8. dont think.
9. are himbos.
10. are egoistic with no real reason.
11. are parasites.
12. live in denial.
13. are stereotypical.
14. are posers
15. have nothing but their authority.
16. go after someone purely for physical appearance then delude themselves into feeling they aren't shallow by extolling non-existant qualities of that person.
17. do things mindlessly without reason.
18. do things just to best other people.
19. judge without knowing the person; based on reputation
20. try to sound intelligent and fail.
21. try to be sarcastic and fail.
22. are of the opinion that 'i am damn good.'
23. are the opinion that 'i am damn good, and you suck.'
24. overrate themselves.
25. are overrated by the general public.
26. obsess over sports.
27. have warped perceptions of thought.

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i'll think of more, guranteed.

WAM camp is stupid. i am never going to join another guitar module with the word 'beginner' in it. arrogant as it sounds, i hate degrading myself. so there.

i am learning NOTHING, at least the half hour messages in the morning are good. stupid flirts ,bimbos, show-offs, sluts, people with unfounded egos should all be rounded up and be shot by the Russian supersniper Zaitsev one by one.

but trolls are different, they should be bunched together. then i take a gravity gun, grab a explosive barrel, and fling it at them. watch them burn and scream.

play half life 2 for a demonstration, the trolls bear lots of similarities to the zombies.

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oh and chris? next time if you dont give 'half a banana', dont pretend that you do. it's alright you dont need to pretend like you care, i've already grown used to the fact that people dont give HALF A FREAKING DICK BANANA about my screwed up existence.

it hurts, in case you decide to care.

the march 'holiday' has finally come, and about time. i really need a break to catch up on my schoolwork.

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at todays assembly, after listening to the sec ones screw up the pledge, i felt like taking a machine gun and slaughtering the whole lot of shrimps. yes that means i wasnt listening to the useless hypocritical devotion.

'it's the thought that counts'. i suppose that applied to the current situation. at it's bare minimum, my thought was to kill the sec ones, and later snipe all the stupid prize presenters and awardees with a Russian Mosin-Nagant (courtesy of War of The Rats).

does the thought really count? i think it does, laws and rules that bind the world aside, i would shoot the bloody morons without hesitation. which made me think about just how much laws and rules influence our thoughts.

i dont know about everybody but judging from my view, these laws and rules influence your thoughts AFTER you come up with the original idea, not before.

example thought process:
GAH BLOODY SEC ONES, SHOOT THEM ALL! (i hate that mousy looking guy.)
but where am i going to get a machine gun?
I DONT WANNA GET HANGEDDDD!
i dont wanna go to hell.
bah so i cant kill them after all :(

oh well, on a side note i should stop trying to think so destructively.

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on the bus ride home i also realised that rayner exists to interfere and screw up my life. he screws up especially the things that mean something, albeit alot to me. i will give examples, though really bad ones to justify how much i hate him.

lwmc: my spiritual touchstone, befouled
yg5: possibly my most beloved group of people in the world, polluted
guitar: one of my few real interests in life, spoiled
lw music team: my reason for learning the guitar, intruded

heck, even the upcoming music and worship workshop has been invaded by hypocrisy.

and yes i know i'm being very hypocritical for hating someone because he's screwing up my religious life, but i really dont know anymore.

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i guess i just express my thoughts on this page, self-concious of the irony and hypocrisy. maybe what i'm really trying to convey is how freaking insecure i am.

gah.

there is a certain sense of annoyance when one gets up on a monday morning to go to school. take today for example, i couldnt even remember HOW to get up. like what time i should be getting up etcetc, but then again that could just be me.

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chapel was good, despite my first impression at seeing that sermon would be replaced by a video. the video conveyed a powerful message that forgiveness is so great, especially after that stupid nonsensical row last night about hating people and defending people for whatever reason.

critics will say that i sounds like daryl when i say i have no right to hate others when a man forgave his sister's murderer, but cant do anything about that can i? i have just opened yet another portal for me to be a hypocrite, sigh.

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the funny thing is that when walking to pe, i realised that i was doing exactly what i was doing last year. i have got to do all my work. i have to do work immediately so that it does not clog up.

bah work work work, i hate it but i have to do it.

*attempts cpr on my work ethic*

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i cant stand unemotional people. what is the point of clapping after the video? do they think it's some kind of joke? that it's cool to clap and be unemotional?

bah.

i would really hate to see people that dont know chrisong stand around looking bored and indifferent when people are saddened.

yes i think i would hate that.

gosh am i really that horrid? i shant be so arrogant as to say it's other people's fault that i'm horrid to them. so sorry all.

YES HOW DAMN BLOODY WHINY OF ME INNIT?!

what an incredibly annoying day.

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highest in class for ihs hypothesis, but then again like 6 other people got 18/20 as well. should i feel any elation at being stereotypically intelligent for once? no i dont think so, go me.

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HEY EVERYBODY LOOK AT ME I AM GOING TO GET THREE OUT OF TWENTY FIVE FOR MY A MATH TEST.

a math is stupid, why on earth are we going to be tested on last year's crap all over again? dont these morons realise that the system is such that NORMAL PEOPLE conveniently forget everything after the exams are over? so useless, gah.

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i am a faker for acting like i know nothing but still getting 20/25 for lang arts a. but of course lang arts b ought to burn for sheer uselessness in the concept of the retest.

'since some people cheated to get brilliant essays and hence high marks, we are going to set a retest and take the best of two.'

gosh that almost sounds more pointless than ncc.

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SNAKES ARE LEGAL IN SINGAPORE?! I WANT.

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there are two types of academic high scorers. those that have passion and general interest for the subjects (re. tim and kaijun), and those that have no brains and just mindlessly mug for the sake of mugging and/or just to get marks (re. david chan and kenny).

of course the latter (of the latter) ought to be shot, so there.

founders day is useless but i suppose i have no right to complain about nothing.

sorry sir and madam.

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i think im useless im self-aware of my flaws but i dont do anything about them. take me being a boring moron for one.

well obviously i dont know how to improve right? since people won't bother to tell me.

yes i know im a horrible conversationalist because im so boring which is why i cant really hold a proper conversation with ian about meaningful stuff. yeah that and he once saying that i was boring.

oh dear maybe thats why people like to dao and ignore me. sir likes to frequently ignore me until i say something useful on msn.

bah oh well.

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