Things to do before i die: keep a clean room for more than 2 days

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oh dear i think my sister is intellectually retarded. if even ME ERIC LEE JUN REN can bash her with wit then there must be something wrong. TEEHEE

maybe one day she might learn that invading people's rooms ISNT very polite. especially the abode of a hermit like me. YES I AM A HERMIT AND IM PROUD OF IT WOOHOO. ahem.

gah, slap all those who dont respect the code of the hermit, which is as follows. (i will be using himself cause i cant be bothered with the whole himself/herself nonsense)

1. a hermit shall only reveal himself to the outside world when absolutely neccesary. (e.g. school, mealtimes, church)

2. a hermit should have a pet to keep him company, failing that, a soft toy will be almost sufficient.

3. a hermit should have A COMPUTER some form of communication in his room that can connect with the outside world.

4. a hermit should have a musical instrument. to while away long hours which are not spent on the computer

5. a hermit should have a fridge in his room, and a microwave to heat up those frozen things.

6. a hermit's abode should be made as sound resistant as possible in case of noise pollution from an ivory monster.

and last but not least,

7. a hermit SHALL NOT BE DISTURBED, so keep out. morons.

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lalala what is this homework you speak of?

Things to do before i die: make sure that chris feels missed when she leaves at the end of march

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what a boring day it was. visiting relatives which i hardly speak to. putting up with an abomination of a toddler at my grandma's house. looking upon stuck up richasses with distaste.

wishing i had just stayed home anyway.

oh well.

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i want a dog, a small furry animal to love. to keep me company in my room.

and i want it to be all MINE. i'm not gonna put up with my sister mooning over it and acting as if she really cares about it.

if she cant even take care of a freaking turtle how can she take care of a dog? i take care of 2 large fish tanks and my terrapin AND her turtle. stupid hypocritical 'animal lovers'.

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oh christine i love you so, you are there for me when amusement cannot be found, when i need something to love and hold and touch, to stroke you to feel you. to hear the sweetness of your voice. you make me smile.

damn i love my guitar =)

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oh dear. so now i'm a bombardier beetle and a cockroach and a missile and 7 other things which are not in my general knowledge. bish.

Things to do before i die: get baptised

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we are the reason that he gave his life
we are the reason that he suffered and died
to a world that was lost he gave all he could give
to show us the reason to live.

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i finally found a reason for living
its in giving every part of my heart to Him
in all that i do every word that i say
i'll be giving my all just for Him
for Him

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oh dear i think that means that i have GOT TO have a purpose for life. sigh.

Things to do before i die: kneel in the rain and cry

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my mind is blank now, (contrary to popular belief it ISNT usually like this, i am not an airhead himbo). maybe being with chongwee for too long has fried my mind.

i think some people in the sec 4 level are so incredibly stupid and devoid of any intellectualism at all that its rather sad.

i'm not talking about myself you retards.

i think that the timetable today is but an illustration of the meaningless of life. what is the point of having more than one section of a subject in a day? as if it isnt enough

and i thought they only did that in primary school where there were 4 subjects.

school is inherently useless and unproductive in acheiving the purpose of education. in a moronic paper-obsessed country like singapore the only purpose of school is to obtain papers through papers (through papers through papers through papers)

gah i think i shall stop here in case people think i'm trying to act mature.

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i hate this period of my life, its difficult to understand and trying of my faith.

one more month and the suffering will be over, or intensified further.

gah this doesnt make sense, agitation is reborn even though i almost got rid of it through and after ldp. its as if this agitation exists just to be removed.

but oh well, OIA

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after a pretty good service (which a certain moron decided to miss), i see willing hearts coming up the stage to try out for worship, i gladly lend them christine to try out.

willing hearts? then what the heck is rayner doing there? scrap that

look, he cant even play, cant read chords, and most of all obviously doesnt understand the significance of serving in a music team. what an insult.

maybe he thinks its cool, thinks that he can go hang out with 'cool' people. wait, what is this 'thinking' i speak of?

shallowness never fails to infuriate.

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does that add on to my list of why the world is screwed up?

"The tower crane is a modern form of balance crane. Fixed to the ground, tower cranes often give the best combination of height and lifting capacity and are used in the construction of tall buildings. To save space, the vertical part of the crane is often built in a well in the centre of the building, which is then converted to a lift (elevator) shaft when the crane is dismantled. A horizontal boom is balanced asymmetrically across the top of the tower. Its short arm carries a counterweight of concrete blocks, and its long arm carries the lifting gear. The crane operator sits in a cabin at the top of the tower.

A tower crane is usually assembled by a telescopic crane of smaller lifting capacity but greater height, and in the case of tower cranes that have risen while constructing very tall skyscrapers a smaller crane will sometimes be lifted to the roof of the completed tower to dismantle the tower crane afterward. A self-assembling tower crane has been demonstrated, which lifts itself off the ground using jacks, allowing the next section of the tower to be inserted at ground level."

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there you go sir, told you they could dismantle themselves.

gah on the long ride home after a fruitful music practice i realised that i am emotionally drained..

a very few issues, some sworn to secrecy, some just plain confusing.

chrisong is migrating to australia this march along with the rest of her family as her mom hsa found a good job there and ib will be cheaper for chris since singapore's, or rather acs(i)'s one is too expensive

the confusing bit is that i see this as more of a blessing than as a cause to grieve and be depressed over.

(does this mean i'm over her?)

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i have no doubt that this is God's work, prayer power? i think i've been praying for all the wrong things.

stupid things like 'oho please let us be friends again'. i think i forgot to add the back part of 'so that i have a better chance'.

about a week before the ldp, realisation just hit me that i was praying for the wrong thing, seeing it from a different perspective.

deluded.

hence i started praying for myself to let go, to rid myself of all distractions that link to chris. God stepped in and let her migrate, out of singapore, out of my life.

thank you Lord.

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uh oh.. at least im furthest from a troll

day 1: mud and crap
day 2: mud, crap, roads, a mountain-turned-waterfall. and crap
day 3: THE SUN (!!!), dryness, fun activities, no freaking water in the toilets
day 4: useless war games with too many rules, thistles, scratched and burning shins, campfire and a mat accent
day 5: left, managed to see my beloved yg for a few seconds

verdict: not worth missing discipleship retreat for, but not bad enough to make school life preferable

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i am le tired. good night.

koped from daryl's blog (obviously), hope he doesnt mind ahaha.

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[my name is]: Eric
[in the morning i am]: Sluggish, stony and contemplative at the same time
[all i need is]: God, from which all things are possible
[i'm afraid of]: Being misjudged.
[i dream about]: packing for ldp. (i only remember last night's dream)

favourites
[colour]: Black
[number]: 4
[subject]: Animals (omg that sounds so primary school esque)
[clothing brand]: None in particular
[shoe brand]: Adidas
[sport to play]: hockey
[drink]: Atomic apple slurpee
[animal]: Orca.
[holiday]: New Year's Day.
[favourite line from a movie]: cant remember any
[band]: none i just look up songs that i like

who...
[makes you laugh the most]: Chong Wee duh.
[makes you smile]: Chrisong
[gives you a funny feeling when you see them]: Chrisong
[has a crush on you]: ?!
[easiest to talk to]: Chriskng

do you ever...
[sit on the internet all day waiting for someone special to i.m. you?]: i sit on the internet all day anyway.
[save aol/aim conversations]: No.
[wish you were a member of the opposite sex]: sometimes.
[cry because of someone saying something to you]: Yes.

have you ever...
[fallen for your best friend]: No.
[been rejected]: Yeah
[rejected someone]: No.
[used someone]: Yup.
[been cheated on]: No.
[done something you regret]: Obviously.

who was the last person
[you talked to on the phone]: My mum. -.-
[hugged]: Sally
[you instant messaged]: Daryl about drinking fishtank water (which i did from my turtle tank)
[you laughed with]: Daryl

do you / are you
[smoke cigarettes]: No.
[obsessive]: Hmm i think so
[could you live without the computer]: For now... no
[how many peeps are on your buddylist]: 122 but i talk to like 5 of them
[what's your favorite food]: Pizza
[fruit]: Grapes which have seeds but have their seeds removed for munching pleasure.
[drink alcohol]: No.
[like watching sunrises or sunset]: Yes but the waking time is undesirable
[what hurts the most]: Backstabbing.
[trust others way too easily]: Nope.

number..
[of times you have had your heart broken]: a few
[of hearts you have broken]: cant remember but i think i might have once or twice unconciously
[of continents I have lived in]: 1
[of drugs taken illegally]: None.
[of tight friends]: 4.
[of cds that i own]: Uhh cant be bothered to count the antiques from p3.
[of books]: No idea.
[of scars on my body]: Shrug.
[of things in my past that I regret]: 1,2,3...

pick one..
[marry perfect friend or perfect lover]: Friend.
[cats or dogs]: Dogs.
[1 or 2 pillows]: Can i have both?
[with or without ice cubes]: With.
[top or bottom]: o.O
[winter / spring / summer / fall]: Winter.
[night or day]: Night, duh.
[gloves or mittens]: Gloves.
[dressed or undressed]: Dressed.
[bunk or water bed]: Bunk.
[mtv or vh1]: What's that?
[ocean or pool]: Pool
[showers or baths]: Baths.
[love or lust]: Love.
[silver or gold]: Silver.
[diamonds or pearls]: Diamonds.

if you could..
[move anywhere]: New Zealand.
[meet one famous person]: Do i know any?
[live with one person the rest of your life]: No idea yet.
[name one thing you love]: Sally the 'rabbit'
[name one thing that embarrasses you]: Stupidity and shallowness.

lastly
[do you like school]: Yeah
[do you like to talk on the telephone]: Yah
[do you like to dance]: ...no
[do you sing in the shower]: No.
[do you think cheerleading is a sport]: Sluts.
[what's on your ceiling]: Light.
[what's the hardest thing about growing up]: Love.

gosh who would've thought getting sick on purpose would be so darn HARD?!

lets see what i have tried:
-staying in the sun despite being a vampire for about an hour
-force feeding myself a tin of butter cookies with no water
-turn aircon down to 16 degrees celsius and wear shorts
-eat loads of toffees without water

AND IM STILL ALIVE AND HEALTHY OMG WHATS WRONG WITH ME.

i wish i had an allergy, then it would be so easy to fall sick as an when i like.

bah.

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ian and chriskng were both being morons on the bus ride home.

on one hand ian is avoiding us and then confiding in chriskng (or at least i think so)

then on the other chriskng is misinterpreting this as some kind of SOCIAL DIVISION and that our friendship will be lost FOREVER.

silly women.

i realised that when you put the words of a song into a sentence instead of in lines it becomes alot more easier to remember and understand the meaning.

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worlds apart - jars of clay

I am the only one to blame for this, some how it all adds up the same.
Soaring on the wings of selfish pride, i flew too high and like Icarus i collide with a world i try so hard to leave behind.
To rid myself of all but love to give and die.
To turn away and not become another nail to pierce the skin of one who loves more deeply than the oceans, more abundant than the tear of a world embracing every heartache.

Can i be the one to sacrifice? Or grip the spear and watch the blood and water flow.

To love you - take my world apart
To need you - i am on my knees
To love you - take my world apart
To need you - broken on my knees

All said and done i stand alone amongst remains of a life i should not own
It takes all i am to believe in the mercy that covers me.

Did you really have to die for me?
All i am for all you are because what i need and what i believe are worlds apart.

And I pray

I look beyond the empty cross forgetting what my life has cost, and wipe away the crimson stains, and dull the nails that still remain.
More and more i need you now, i owe you mroe each passing hour.
Battle between grace and pride, give up not so long ago.
So steal my heart and take the pain, wash the feet and cleanse the pride.
Take the selfish take the weak, and all the things i cannot hide.
So take the beauty, take my tears, take this sin soaked heart and make it yours.
Take my world apart.
Take it now, take it now and server the ones that i despise, speak the words i can't deny.
Watch the world i used to love, fall to dust get blown away.
I look beyond the empty cross forgetting what my life has cost, and wipe away the crimson stains, and dull the nails that still remain.
So steal my heart and take the pain.
Take the selfish, take the weak, and all the things i cannot hide.
Take the beauty, take the tears, take my world apart.
Take my world apart.
And i pray, and i pray, and i pray.
Take my world apart.

Worlds apart.

about this positive back-to-school attitude, could it be that it's subconcious joy from breaking out of stoning at home everyday immersed in boredom.

if thats the case then its just a matter of time before we get bored of school and crave the holidays again.

that's human nature for you.

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physics re-exam was easy but i will still need alot of luck to pass. but oh well at the most i'll jsut be forced to drop physics

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bahrgh i do hope this damn work ethic of mine never goes away.

first day of school was not as bad as i expected it to be, but i supposed the first few days are always like that. like a sprint, you are all full of energy at the start but lose energy and determination as it goes on.

at least that's for me, i was never a long distance runner anyway (not that i'm a sprinter but thats not the point you morons)

my desire to do work has freaked me out, but then again i try to remember if i was like this at the start of last year.

OMGCHRISGETOUTOFMYHEADAAAAARGRRRHRGHRGHRHGHR

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oh sigh i hope i can run a marathon this year, who will be my waterboys along the way?

resolution for 2006: get over you(-know-who no thanks to julian and me gah <_<)

why do i feel that going back to school is so inherently pointless and useless? there's nothing to look forward to other than another meaningless string of tests and assignments and the shallowness of results and grades. and missing a discipleship gathering thanks to the f***ed up screwed up planning of the "leadership-development-program"

all for what?

there must be more than this.

the yg gathering was fun, albeit less stony than last year.

i had this sudden flash that lasted for a few seconds, that the memory of the last countdown party was still as vivid as ever, and that between the last party and the one happening now, NOTHING HAS HAPPENED IN BETWEEN. oh gosh that sounds insane =/

stonestonestone, i think rayner's still as moronic as ever, so there.

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getting roughly 20mins of sleep culimated into extremely useless behavior on my part, could it be the 'chrisong effect'? but then again her blurness isnt caused by a lack of sleep, as illustrated in the fact that she couldnt come cause she needed her beauty sleep. teehee

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idiotic half life 2, oh well... i'll miss you 2005, maybe i'll blog more later when i'm less tired